Sweet Sassy Princess

My New Cyber Abode

2009-08-16T20:02:00.003+08:00

I'm migrating to Wordpress...
You may visit my brand new blog-- http://jhellai.talk4fun.net
Happy Blogging Everyone!

NOTICE

2009-02-07T14:50:00.005+08:00

Dear Friends,

I will no longer update this site.
I found my new home!

My posts here will be forever memories!

Smooches xoxo

Jhellai

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2008-10-22T16:35:00.002+08:00

"Sometimes i wanna cry out my long kept tears. But I'm scared that no one will bother to show some care and that's why i decided to keep it all here and i dont care even if if will be to hard to bear because sometimes... Even friends don't mind if your in pain as long as they see you smile, they assume you are ok."

I feel alone right now.

2008-10-18T21:29:00.003+08:00

As of this moment Oct 18, 2008 9:31pm, I feel so ALONE and SAD without any reasons or maybe just a plain and simple reasons... why? i wish i'm with my friends right now... I'm missing them so much, I've been busy for a long time. I miss my OPS team, i wish I could be with them in Cebu RIGHT NOW!!! I guess they were having fun there but me? im here inside my room ALONE. I can't join them because we have a big family reunion tomorrow (sunday) i have to chose my family because they should be my priority. I'm kinda teary eyed now while typing this... i know im over reacting but im just being true! Can you please comfort me? im alone... im alone... yes ALONE and i hate it!!! Make me HAPPY now... :(

BuSy ME :D

2008-09-29T10:08:00.011+08:00

Date: Sept 29, 2008

*I will meet my friends and some friends of friends! chill & have some shoot at the Harbour Square. yippeeee~ Oct 1 is a holiday, i might stay home the whole day to rest because i'll be busy for the next days & weeks.

*We will have a Bowl fest on Oct 3. I'm excited to play! the last time i played bowling was when i was still in HS! ooh the old days :)

*Back to WSS (FOH) raket!

*We will have a grand reunion on Oct 19- (Rubio-Valino Clan) to be held at Everlasting Resort in Cabanatuan City (the long and winding road.......) because of that, i won't be able to join in Cebu with my team mates.

*Halloween Parties (still tentative)

Oh what excites me the most???....

*I'm excited to our upcoming 4 days and 3 nights beach getaway soon!!!...
I need to gain weight hmmm 5-10 lbs yeah! :P
Hey Boracay Island here we come!!!

Btw, It's my dad's bday yesterday! Thank you Lord for another year. For giving us the chance to be with him again. Thank you Lord for his 2nd life... :)

I miss my blog!

2008-09-08T14:13:00.004+08:00

Date: Sept. 8, 2008

Graveh. super duper ever tagal na... tinatamad akong mag blog, wala namang nagbabasa e! haha! dami ng nangyari, dami nang nagbago, dami ng naranasan, dami ng natikman... amf! haha :P nakakamiss, nakakalimutan ko na din kase e... Ok naman ako, masaya minsan malungkot o nakakainis... iba iba.. pero carry lang! hehe :P hmmm kung ano na lang maalala ko.

Friends?
yups! i miss them im glad na kahit busy kami nagkikita kita pa din kami lalo na ng mga college budz ko, recently e wedding ni Nas and Karen, Christening ni baby Cheska- Raq & jeff's baby and Slumber party sa house nila Nas. basta lahat ng photos nyan nasa multiply ko :D haay saya! Last week naman mineet ko ang 2 HS bessies ko si Ivy and Jen, watch lang ng movie, kain then videoke, tagal din naming di nagkita kita na buo kaming 3. kakamiss... kanya kanyang mundo na kase pero masaya at least nabibigyan pa namin ng time ang isa't isa.

Work?
Time flies so fast, naka 6 months na ko as Jr Web Dev sa GTS. Regular na ko, di lang halata haha, makapag file na nga ng sangkatutak na leave! haha. Thanks nga pala sa OPS team sa flowers! ang sweeeeet hehe. I'm ok naman, masaya , kasundo ko mga tao at higit sa lahat gusto ko ung ginagawa ko, minsan kahit dami gawa eh hindi ko nararamdaman na work yun, kase gusto ko ung ginagawa ko parang laro lang! haha. Habang my full time job ako, rumaraket naman ako sa West Side Story (FOH) every weekends, nagstart last friday mag eend yun hanggang 2nd week ng October. sayang din yung income e per show kaya bonggang bongga!, kesa tumambay lang ako sa house at gumimik e rumaket na lang, kumikita ka pa! titiisin ko na lang ang walang rest day ng napakahabang panahon, kase at the end of the day naman e marami naman akong salapi! haha joke baka makidnap me :P ciempre namiss ko na din ang mga shows na ganyan, at ang mga taong naka work ko sa mga events, na nakita ko ulit :D haaay nakakamiss...

Hobby?
Same old hobby, Photography! I'm still using my Sony H7, wala pa kong DSLR, tsaka na yun as long as na eenjoy ko pa si Sonic (my H7) minsan my shoot, sama mga photographer wannabes friends. Right now wala akong time dahil sa work at raket. Gusto ko ng bagong hobby ung kakaiba kase halos lahat ng tao puro camera na hawak! hehehe

Plans?
Wala akong plano! joke. Yung plan ko last summer na magenrol sa isang Art Class hindi natuloy wala kase akong nakita at kulang din sa time. Gusto ko sana i enhance yung painting/ drawing skills ko kase nwala e. i can't paint/ draw na ng matino unlike before, dapat kase nagpractice ako. Gusto ko sana mag enroll this sem ng PHP Programming / Java Programming / Project Management / Flash with Action Script kaso wala ding time. :( May pinaplano ako next year pero hindi ko sasabihin :P

Lovelife?
No Comment!

haaay yun lang... blog ulit ako pag my naisip na ko na my sense! haha :D

My Summer Escapade 2008

2008-06-02T10:13:00.003+08:00

Date written: June 2, 2008

Lot’s of updates.

Oh my! I owe my site lots of updates… It’s already June! Half of the year, time flies so fast… The sad part is… Summer is over!

Alright, let me enumerate the places I’ve been this summer 2008.

1. White Beach Puerto Galera
I’ve been there twice. This is just an overnight stay. Just read the post prior to this for the story.

2. Pundaquit Beach
Pundaquit Beach is located in San Antonio Zambales. Around 4 hours drive from Manila. Nice beach and clear water but too bad, it was gloomy in the afternoon and the sunset didn’t show up well that time. We stayed in the resort called Wildrose Inn.

3. Camara Island
Just across Pundaquit. Around 10 minutes boat ride. The place was relaxing. You can see the view of Pundaquit Mountain.

4. Capones Island
I love the white sand here. The water is clear like a crystal. You will definitely enjoy the place. Capones is just around 5 minutes boat ride when you’re coming from Camara. I didn’t get a chance to explore the Capones Lighthouse because the water going to the side where the lighthouse is located was rough that time.

5. Anawangin Cove
Around 15-20 mins boat ride from Capones. This is a Paradise! I love the environment in Anawangin- the two different bodies of water, the mountains around, the white sand, the clear blue-green water, the pine trees…the views and all about Anawangin! This is a true breath taking place. But—I was frustrated when I saw trashes around. **People, Please do not leave your trashes in the island. Save Anawangin!

6. Pansol Laguna
Pansol is known for hot spring resorts. We just stayed in a private pool called “Harong ni Charing” This is a cool and clean place for a day trip getaway.

I LOVE MY SUMMER ESCAPADE!

Galera 08 with HS budz + Snapshots

2008-04-27T19:57:00.010+08:00

Date Written: 04-27-08
Mood: Bored
Currently listening to: The sound of silence.

The overdue story is here...toink! We (Me, Nikki, Bam, Mirick, Carlo & Dianne) went to Puerto Galera last April 5-6, 2008, It's just an overnight stay but it was fun. I will make the looong story short... The 1st day was so tiring- swimming and pictorial under the beautiful sunset... It was one of the best sunset I've seen so far. the long white beach was crowded. At night, We tried the Mindoro Sling, tastes good just like an ordinary juice mixed with wine. we also stayed at the seashore watching the stars and exchanging stories, i fell asleep too coz i'm not feeling well that day. Yes I'm sick but nobody stopped me from enjoying the cold water of white beach.lol. The night was sooo cold too. The next day, oh it's raining! we're supposed to witness the sunrise but we went outside around 8am. We went to the other side of the beach, we climb on the rocks and we're just holding on the roots and woods around what a hell of experience but it was so challenging & exciting! I am proud! lol. After climbing, strolling & swimming, we went to the shops to buy souvenirs, ate our lunch, henna tat, stroll, massage etc... it's around 4pm so we prepare ourselves to go back to the real world and I'm home around 12 midnight. aaaaaw. what a memorable escapade! till next ;)

more pix here >>

Day 1
Day 2
Galera Night
Beach

I have been tagged!

2008-03-08T11:18:00.004+08:00

Thanks Jhoyskee, for tagging me.

The rules: Link to the person that tagged you. Post the rules on your blog. Share six unimportant things/habits/quirks about your self. Tag 6 random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs. Let these random people know that they are tagged by leaving comments in their blog.

Let your tagger know when your entry is up.

1. I am a beach bum.

2. I am a "techie" person.

3. I love organizing parties/outings for my friends/family.

4. I don't smoke but I drink occasionally.

5. I can't sleep without a blanket and with lights turned on.

6. I am open minded person, open to any possibilities.

I'm tagging:

ANYONE!!!
I broke the rules! :P

When God closes the door, He opens a window! (So True)

2008-03-02T11:08:00.005+08:00

It's a boring sunday afternoon, Just staring on my PC, browsing, stalking others account haha and blogging while watching TV. I'm so tired from last week's activities and work. Regarding my visa, hmm... denied. haha. But I'm happy because God showed me the right way. Here's the story: I got a text from the agency..."your passport is ready for pick up". So i went to Makati with my mom to see the result and... Denied! One thing that comes first on my mind was "shocks sana pinang shopping ko na lang yung nagastos ko!" haha. I'm ok naman ganun talaga, at least i tried no more what if's!. After hearing the news, my mom and I decided to go to Greenhills, while having snack at one of the establishment there... I got a call from a company na inapplyan ko before and invited me for an interview. Kinabukasan 9:45am pa lng nasa office na ko, 10am ang interview ko, pero 10:30am na ko tinawag... After the interview with the HR, nag practical exam na ako, they gave me an hour to create a web interface for an online store, written exams and final interview then job offer na. ang bilis! I'm working now for the company as Web Developer, but I'm still on the adjustment stage, schedule, environment, job and people, but for me as long as you love/like what your doing, you will enjoy it! (1 week na ko next week) mahirap at ang dami ko pang dapat matutunan at aralin kaya mababawasan na din ang "photowannabe moments & gimik days" in short social life! hahaha but im still open for weekend "rakets"! haha paging Trumpets.. Stages.. hehehe. hmmm wala pa kong nasusubmit na requirements sa HR! walang time ayusin hahaha. pero next week i need to complete it na. pasaway :D It's so funny lang kase sa visa application ko, Feb 26 yung date ng departure ko dapat, then Feb 26 ung hiring date ko naman. (dont ask me na re: visa, it's over and I'm happy) grabe sooo true talaga that when God closes the door, He opens a window! and everything happens has a reason. Thank you God because without you im so so nothing and i want to give back all the glory and praises to you, I'm so blessed, I know i'm not perfect but you showed me your unconditional love. I hope and pray na makayanan ko tong new chapter sa life ko (naks!) and This is it! ;)

Camwhore Galore

2008-02-15T00:38:00.008+08:00

hmmm... just testing my Sony H7's wireless remote. I attached my camera to my PC, so that i can see myself in the monitor. haha. Cool! Camwhore before bedtime (Posing while holding the remote with my right/left hand haha).

Snapshots Collection Set 1-3

2008-02-13T14:30:00.013+08:00

Snapshots of a photographer wannabe!

Tools: Nikon 3100, Sony Cybershot DSC H7, APCS3

Photos by: Jhellai

Princess in the couch.

2008-02-12T19:48:00.000+08:00

OMG. I'm back into blogging. It's been a long time since my last post :P Lots of things happened. wheew! I'm slight BUM now (doing some freelance job) & I'm bored. Just finished my web project. I'm waiting for something, yeah waiting for my visa! I'm hoping that the embassy will grant me one. I'm excited to explore new things, excited to meet new faces and i can say I'm ready to face new challenges, ready to be away from my family and friends, ready to be alone and find myself haha (for a while). 1-3 months away is not long, I'm back before you knw it... If i'm going to pass! (oh please let me pass... I'm going back noh!) It's so hard to decide but there's nothing wrong in "trying", If this is the time i would gladly accept it. If not? I'll respect it and think that God has better plan for me...

PHOTOGRAPHY. yes i have this passion for photography lately and I'm dreaming to be a professional photographer doing print ad shoots, magazine shoots, product shoots, events shoots etc... Just got new Sony Cybershot H7 last December as a Christmas present for myself- this is a prosumer / semi professional camera. I want to have DSLR one of these days... hopefully :D So need to work hard! coz it's expensive to have one. Take a look at my sample shots in my "snapshots" category at the right side --> I'm looking forward to shoot with my bride to be friend Jhen for their unofficial "prenup shoot" at the Ecopark soon! and also to be the "unofficial photographer" for her wedding on March 1 if!!!, I'm still here, only God knows. I'm one of the entourage but i have dilemmas in my schedule so I ask my friend to remove me on the list (im so sorry) but promised her to be one of the "photographer" if i could come.

CRAYPASS PAINTING. yep I'm trying to revive the lost "skill" i bought a new set of craypass and whiteboards. Too bad, why is it hard for me to draw and blend colors now? Please bear with me.

Im happy that i learned a lot of things this past weeks and i got one achievement that means a lot to me. But still... I really need a break to find myself honeslty because Im still confused & i dont know which way to go... So i hope God will grant me this special request that I've been praying for. One more thing, I moved on! whatever it is? just leave it to me :P

Isang linggong Pagibig. este gastos.

2007-10-27T11:47:00.000+08:00

hello! slight busy busyhan / emo mode ako this week. :) ang gastos ko my gosh!!! naiinis ako. simulan natin...

Last Sunday I went to the Mall... I bought a dress sa Bayo. ang cute kase e! plus ung orange blouse sa Dept store. sabi ko na di ako gagastos pero... *gulo buhok* haaay.

Monday- I went to the bank para mang hold-up ete para magdeposit at magwithdraw haha adik. I went to the mall again to buy some kaartehan for my hygiene stuffs then i headed str8 na to my derma. after my treatment, I'm back to the mall, i saw a nice top again, so what can u expect? I bought it... after that i went to the Optical shop to buy 2 pairs of contact lens (gray & blue).

Tuesday- Si Waquin nasa hauz!!! yey! yaya mode!!!.

Wednesday- we had only 1 show so im kinda bored pa... i shop again! this time ung mga kailangan ko like... hair rollers and hairspray! (haha kailangan ko ba nyan???) wala lang natuwa ako kase color pink!, metalic blue cutix (ang arte talaga), and some personal stuffs na. haaay enough! jhellai uwe!!! (sabi ng kunsensya ko)

Thursday- Bad trip ako umagang umaga. eniwei, I gave 1k to my mom for my DSL payment. After our show. I went straight to Trinoma (mall nanaman ito!) what can u expect again? I shop!... but!!! for my nephew. i bought some stuffs from Osh Kosh. hindi pa ko nakuntento. I went to SM North to buy shoes for the baby (I'm with my friends- Ivy & Mic)... So ayun uwi na gad kase manunuod pa ko ng... Marimar! bwaaahahahaha!!!

Friday- Busy-busyhan... hehehe. i got my cheque for first name! woohooo . This time deretso uwi na ko yehey!( well... my isa pa kong cheque na hinihintay- 2 months na kong pinapaasa kahit na trinabaho ko naman un. sinayang nyo ang oras ko! lesson: wag magtitiwala basta basta! well, kahit na ginaganyan nyo ko thankful ako dahil blessed pa din ako kase wala akong dinedehado na tao. at kung puro salita lang lagi maririnig ko... tao din ako marunong akong lumaban! lahat ng tatapak sa akin, kakain ng lupa. hahaha). enough! umiinit ang ulo ko.
Saturday- Ngayon yun! wala kong magawa pero maraming dapat gawin...hmp. baka pumunta ako sa friend ko later dahil my hihiramin ako sa kanya. my trick or treat kapatid ko sa school so inayusan ko cya-->

Sunday- OO bukas yun- Oct 28, It's Waquin's Christening & Musicademy anniv, baka hindi na ko makapunta sa shang... :(

So ano nga bang sked ko next week...???
Oct 29- Meeting/ Briefing/ Rehe sa Makati.
Oct 30- Event sa Manila Peninsula
Oct 31- Appointment kay Doctora (tentative)
Nov 1- Date with my relatives' souls (hehe)
Nov 2- Free ako- sinong magpapabook sa oras ko? text na! 1st come. 1st serve. haha
Nov 3- Halloween-Costume Partee / Reunion with college budz
Nov 4- Rest...... dahil ngarag at puyat ako nyan for sure!!!

Babuuush!!! :P

Masaya o Malungkot?

2007-10-23T12:08:00.000+08:00

Ang bilis bilis ng panahon... sobra, hindi ko alam kung magiging excited ba ako o hindi. gusto ko munang huminto yung ikot ng mundo. Ang dami pang katanungan na gusto kong mabigyan ng kasagutan. (ang lalim) Ang dami kong gustong gawin. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang tama at ang uunahin ko pero alam kong magagawa ko yun. Masaya ako ngayong panahong ito pero hindi ko lang maintindihan bakit sa tuwing masaya ako, may taong nararamdaman kong naiinis dahil masaya ako, hindi ako maintindihan kahit ipaliwanag ko na. sige ako na lng yung mali, ok lang sa akin, ako na lahat, ako, ako, ako... at hindi ko kailangan magpaliwanag pa sa ibang tao kung ano man ang totoo, akalain na nila kung ano ako, sabihin na nila ang gustong sabihin sa akin, wala akong paki alam. ok lang sa akin kung ano magiging tingin ng iba basta ang mahalaga kilala ko yung sarili ko kung ano ako. Parang minsan gusto ko na magpapanggap na lang ako na malungkot dahil nararamdaman ko mas maayos sila pag malungkot ako, tahimik ang buhay. hindi ko maintindihan- paranoid lang ba ko? pero eto yung nararamdaman ko ngayon. Lagi na lang ako ang nagbibigay o nagpaparaya para lang sumaya yung mga tao sa paligid ko... pero kapag ako na? parang nararamdaman ko tutol na ang lahat.

Bawal ba akong maging masaya?...
Tama na ang drama.

1 week ago. emo. Halloween

2007-10-16T11:16:00.000+08:00

ey-yoh! bakit ganun my times talaga na tinatamad akong mag blog. pero cge... well, last week busy-busyhan ang drama ko....

1 WEEK AGO

MOA Centerstage

Tuesday: 10am to 10pm -MOA -centerstage. Rehearsal for First Name. First time kong nabasa ung script. So ganun pala yung story nun... Nice and sooo touching!

Wednesday: 10am to 10pm pa din. so ngarag talaga. I got my allowance! yehey. Rehearsal pa din kinabahan ng konti kase baka mamali ako ng que at baka sigawan ako sa Mic si Direk Freddie. hehe pero ok naman pala hehe... then 7pm -TDR/Preview (SM Night).

Thursday: 8am nasa MOA na ko. layo din ng byahe ko ah. 1 hour and half. carry lang :) may nangyari pang kahihiyan sa akin sa MRT!!! haha. sakin na lng yun. 10am & 2pm yung show. ung 2pm show, Press Preview... around 4:30... ikot & chikahan muna sa MOA then mga 7pm uwi na almost 9pm na ko nakauwi. kapagod.

Friday: mga 12:30 na ata ako dumating ng MOA. 2pm ang show. around 4:30. we decided to go to SM Marilao para mag merienda! (South to North ah- 1 hour & half byahe) hehe... adik. gabi na din ako nakauwi.

Saturday: Dapat pupunta akong Mall with Berochie kaso parehas kami tinamad sa pagod na din ng nagdaang week... my gagawin sana ko para sa isang raket ko kaso di ko na nagawa pa dahil parang feeling ko latang lata ako. so nagpahinga talaga ako at bawal sa kin ma stress e.

Sunday: Hindi ako nakapagchurch. sorry Lord :( pero natuloy kmi ni Berochie sa SM (guilty tuloy me)... Ikot, Shopping, Grocery, Chikkahan. Bumili ako ng mga cereals & fresh milk for my new healthy lifestyle! hanggat kaya ko iiwasan ko ng kumain ng mga walang sustansyang pagkain. Gabi n din ako nauwi. ang sakit ng paa ko.

EMO
Monday: I went to the Clinic for my treatment dahil nga sa allergies at infection na toh na biglang nag hello world! hmp., mejo less pain nman, unlike my 2nd treatment na hindi na lng ako makapag react sa sakit na gusto ko ng bumangon sa higaan at wala n kong luha dahil expected ko na ung sakit. winner talaga. at sanay na ko sa napakadaming injection , parang kagat lng ng langgam mga 20 na langgam hehehe... traumatic! basta yun na yon!!! ang importante I'm getting better na... tsaka ok na, i can face the world! haha. I just dont like the marks... patience lang... babalik uli ako sa monday sa doc.

Jusmiyo ang gastos ko!!! Thank God hindi ako nauubusan ng raket. Nagkaroon ako ng mga web "rakets" then heto sa production naman ako til december, ok na din freelancer ako kase regular naman ung Salary at until December lang naman, I can accept pa rakets outside basta hindi tatama sa scheds ng mga shows namin, para makapag rest din. By January... babalik na ko sa Corporate World at paghahandaan ko talaga yun! hehe.

HALLOWEEN
I'm organizing a Halloween Party for my Budz and ka Block nung college to be held at Oli's Place. I'm planning to set up band instrument for the jamming session. too bad ung drumset ni Oli hindi pa daw nya napapaayos. tapos ung guitar nya sira pa. pero gagawa pa din ako ng paraan masaya kase my live music lalo na mga talented pa naman ung mga friends ko naks! at music ung nabubuo at hindi noise barrage! hehe. namimiss ko lang kase ung mga jamming moments namin nung college. kase kung hindi, i will end up setting up the videoke, ikes! haha. Tapos ung iba pa ang tagal mag confirm ng attendance nila, pasaway?. Ay Bawal sa kin ma stress ok. Salamat sa mga nagconfirm! Gosh ano kaya ang costume ko? ung iba excited na din sa costume nila.ung iba KJ... bahala kau hehe... yung food. ayoko magpalawal haha. pot lock na lng cguro. well, i will text them all for the updates. yun lang!!! excited ako ha please wag nyo kong ifrustrate ha kung hindi... friendship is over! HEHE :P

I'l Be Alright

2007-10-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

First time ko lang narinig ang song na to kanina sa MYX... Nagandahan ako. Ang senti... :) I love the lyrics too :)

Thanks to vivamusicgroup for the video.

I’ll Be Alright
by Sarah Geronimo

It’s time for me to let you know
I am so glad that I have you
Through all these years
I am so thankful

Now that I’ve grown
I’ll always be thinking of you
With all the things you taught me so
Always remember

I’ll be alright, I’ll be ok
I will be good learning all the way
All from the heart, these things I do
I’ll make you proud because I love you
I’ll be alright, I’ll be ok
I will be fine
And I’ll be good all the way
All from the heart, these things I do
I’ll make you proud because I do
I love you so

I will stand tall and I’ll try not to fall
As I reach all of my goals
I will go on, I will move on
All because of you
For you

How to Overcome Sadness

2007-10-02T15:06:00.000+08:00

We all have bad days, but don't let them ruin how you feel about yourself or others.

List everything in your life you are thankful for and be happy. Put humor in your life! Learn to laugh at yourself or rent your favourite funny videos. Do not make any big decisions while you're in this state. Wait until you're feeling better so you can rationally weigh the ups and downs of your decisions. Do something that you enjoy or that will keep you busy, like cleaning your house, volunteer, or read your favorite book.
Try to make some plans with your friends. Chances are that you'll have tons of fun. Don't expect too much of yourself. Face the things that you're dreading. Once you do, you're bound to feel a lot better. Buy yourself or someone else a gift. Relax. Take a long walk by yourself to think things over, take a bubble bath, or listen to soothing music. Be sure to get enough sleep by going to bed and waking up at reasonable times. Being tired makes you feel more stressed and annoyed.
Give someone a hug. Everybody likes those. It'll make both of you feel good. Know that what you are going through is very common. Talk to someone you trust about what you are feeling - they can help you sort through your emotions.
Get some exercise. When you exercise, your body makes more special chemicals called endorphins that help to improve your mood. Regular exercise will also help to maintain a regular even appetite and sleep schedule - both important to your mental state as well. Practice deep relaxation exercises. Pray or read something inspirational . Don't dwell on your weaknesses or mistakes. Think of things that you love about yourself or that you've done to help someone. Be proud of yourself and your accomplishments.
Prepare for tests early. Eat healthier meals and snacks. A good diet helps you both physically and mentally.
Set realistic goals. Always take things one step at a time. Stop worrying about things that may never happen. Find yourself. Get involved with things you like to do. Keep a journal . Your journal can act as someone you can always vent to and will never judge you. Make time for fun.
Do something totally selfless and anonymous - volunteer at a shelter or local treatment facility. Give thought to how much you have if you have a roof over your head, food to eat and are healthy.
Do not try to get rid of your bad thoughts -specially in loss of a loved one- by fighting them when they came to your mind. Just let them move through your head, think of them, but don't let them take control over you. Manage them, for example if you are at work, leave them for a better to time think of. Struggling in order to get rid of some thoughts will make them stronger.
Remember that your mind is a battleground and you are the one who has to write the story of this battle. If you solve any problem inside your head, no longer it's of importance that if the truth is the way you like it or not. Is there anything happening in the real world when you don't know of it. In better words from works of Jean Baudrillard the French philosopher if a tree falls and a reporter from NY Times is not there, has the tree fallen at all?

Seize the day everyone!

Source: http://www.wikihow.com/Overcome-Sadness

I'm Back

2007-10-01T14:28:00.000+08:00

OMG. I'm sooo busy this past weeks. I have no time to blog! but look, I already change my blog profile! :) I so so so miss life! But what can i do?... :( Sooo depressed the other week because of some kinda annoying allergic reaction, that i don't want the world to see me. *sigh* but eniwei, I'm more better now than last week... I just need to change my lifestyle and continue my medications. I need to drink 8-12 glasses of water ( i used to drink 3-4 glasses a day before), Oh I need to Sleep early around 9-10pm! (bawal ng mapuyat) I need Lot's of Vitamin A in my body, more veggies and fresh fruits and i think i should refrain from eating some of my fave seafoods. I'm soo skinny & I hate it. Ok forget about this annoying thingy...

Oh btw, I saw Waquin again last friday night! He is sooo cute and adorable. Waquin is my Nephew, the new additonal joy in the family. He's my bro's son. I hope to see this baby again soon!!! =)

6 weeks old

1 day old

More of him soon!!! :)

yey! spark?

2007-08-30T19:02:00.000+08:00

My golly. 22 days ngsira ang net ko. digitel sucks! (sigh). I got a new hair cut yesterday at David's! but i dont't like the outcome so i cut my own hair kanina and i laaab it na! hirap nga lang mag style kase para kong bruha pag hinayaan ko lang na matuyo! need to blow dry & iron it. grrr haha. post ko sana my pics but im just renting a PC here near our house. grrr.... Finally! I'm out of the shell, it made me feel so better, no worries and katamaran galore. haha! eh sana things will turn out right soon =) hmmm... on the other side, haaay i just dunno what im feeling ryt now but somebody put smile in my heart *wink* there's a spark in me! although he does'nt feel the same way naman haha but its ok for me if not ;) that's life and my life has to go on! hehehe. yun lang crush-crush para kong Highschool na my crush hahaha! Thanks to you & for appreciating me. well yun lang! lapit na time ko sa rent ko d2! haaaayzzz. sa susunod uli! byerz!

grarrr.

2007-08-16T15:10:00.000+08:00

Bored to Death.
I wanna fly high and get out of this shell.

I want a new haircut like this... =)

I'm bored with my looong hair.

&

For a change! ;-)

Friendship Test

2007-08-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

Anyone can try this special test! it does'nt matter if you' re my new or old friend! just feel free to take this test and make your own test too! Goodluck!

Create your own Friend Test here

Congrats!!!

2007-08-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

Yey!!! ang galing ng PILIPINO! Wooohooo!!!

Reymond Sajor is the new Grand Champion Senior Vocalist of the World in the recently concluded 11th World Championships of Performing Arts (WCOPA) in Hollywood, USA! Galing!!! I'm proud of you, of course your Trumpets' family too!!! Dream come true!!! Shocks buti na lng nag picture picture na tayo at baka di na kita makita at malapitan ngayong sisikat ka na! hahaha joke! CONGRATS REYM!

Reymond & I
(Tambay sa labas ng Cinema 4 Megamall)

***11-year old Aria Clemente is also named Grand Champion Junior Vocalist of the World, and Over-all Grand Champion of the World Junior Division in WCOPA.

http://oliverpublicist.blogspot.com

CONGRATS sa inyo! =)

Randomness Galore + Big Girls Don' Cry.

2007-07-28T11:06:00.000+08:00

weee!!! i'm back!. I'm quite busy recently... aaaaw. last July 10 ung last blog ko... so lets start with...

July 11 (wednesday)- my first day sa new job ko. weeee. I'm adjusting to the new environment. I miss my former colleagues, our kulitan and asaran during office hours! aawww. haha. After my work, I wento Bagaberde for MYMP's despedida. Masaya nung night na yun one of the best! jamming/request galore kase. I saw a friend wayback college days sa Bagaberde. (hmmm small world huh? "muling ibalik..." haha =p) Eniwei, late na din natapos at sobrang antok at ngarag na ko my pasok pa kinabukasan. Happy naman =)
July 14 (saturday)- After my meeting sa office. I went to Trinoma to meet my college friends. We had late lunch, watched HP5, stroll around and had dinner. Na meet ko din si lalie. We went home around 10pm. pagod na din kase at 1pm pa magkakasama na kami.
July 22 (sunday)- My Birthday! Yahoo! My friends went to our house for a simple celebration. Im soo happy that night. One of the best bdays i ever had! at hindi masyadong umulan yehey! Thank you guys for making my day sooo memorable!!! i will never forget it. Simple lang pero masaya =) I love you all! Salamat din sa mga nag greet sa akin. yey! muaaaaah! happeeee!!! ***heto nanaman ako. ang dami nanamang pumapasok sa isip ko na gusto ko gawin at bilhin. haaay! hmmm i wanna curl my hair, i want a digital perm buuut!!! di pa pala pwede coz i got my hair semi rebonded last May... So... dahil pasaway ako sa hair... I colored it with Revlon's Medium Ash Blonde hahaha! at ngaun I'm doing treatment sa hair ko using chocolate mud treatment wax. =)

Anyway! i looove this song huh--->

BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY- FERGIE

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]

La Da Da Da Da Da

Ang Tagal.

2007-07-10T20:19:00.000+08:00

Grabe. ang tagal kong di nag blog. nakakatamad kase. ang dami nangyari mixed emo,ayun huli na ang lahat wala na ko magagawa. (hahaha) Sooo busy doing layouts din.I might enroll again (flash) this coming August. May mangyayari pa lang pero di ko alam kung "will" ba talaga yun, but i prayed naman na If it is God's will eh maging ok ang maging discussion. On the other side... Waaah I'm still waiting... I'm still searching!!! nasaan ka na ba? bakit hindi mo ko makita?!!! amf. Anyway! Look at my new bed set -up. (hindi po yan nursery. isip bata lang talaga ung may ari.haha) Kulang pa... I will buy 3 throw pillows (metallic purple and silver).

For Good =)

2007-07-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
Because I knew you
I have been changed for good

And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share
And none of it seems to matter anymore

Like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes the sun.
Like a stream the meets a boulder halfway through the wood.
Like a ship blown from its mooring by a wind off the sea.
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better?
And because I knew you
I have been changed for good.

Realization

2007-06-27T14:50:00.000+08:00

“Some things are not meant to be, learn to let go and be brave to stand with your own feet” Yeah. This is true. I learned in this life that we should not push ourselves in pursuing things that are not meant for us. Live life the way it should be, Live freely and happy. Life is too short to just stand and wait for the rain to pour. Take chances, risks and go with the flow. Be contented with what you have for in time you will find the answers of the undying questions in your mind.

I don’t have any regrets in my life because I know that every decision that i made has a reason why i did it right?. (of course! parang walang sense ung sinabi ko haha) life, career, love…(hehe) I failed sometimes in pursuing something, I’m only human and I’m not perfect. Failures are part of a life’s journey and we should learn how to overcome it. I was scared in “life” then, but right now I’m standing with my head up high and bravely shout to the whole world that I can reach my goals in life. Opportunities knocking on me, but I decided to walk out the door because I believe that there’s a big window waiting for me and I will bravely stand for it! I’m inspired with life right now thanks for the people who inspired me. my family, my close friends, some acquiantances. This is just the beginning of my life’s journey. Stay Happy peeps!!! Be Happy in your own ways because everybody deserves to be HAPPY!

"Dreamer"

Busy Weekend + Cravings + Mourn

2007-06-25T00:49:00.000+08:00

Fri Night- waah nagce-crave ako gusto ko ng WhaM Burger!!! but i ended up eating Mc Nuggets and fries. hmp. anyway!I watched the Highschool Musical Press Night at The Meralco Theatre. It was awesome! full of energy. I like Sharpays role, played by Alex Godinez. Ang cute nya sooo kikay at bagay ang role. Ok din si Sam as Troy Bolton, ang payat nga lang nya sa stage. Si Cheska ang cute nya ang amo ng face, she played Gabriella. Winner din ang role ni Kuya Jeff Arcilla as Coach Bolton and si Ms. Sheila as Ms. Darbus... basta nice cya! same lang din sa movie pero iba talaga pag live. Winner ang finale kakaaliw! Guys if u wanna watch? call Ticketworld!. 1 AM na din ako nakauwi kumain muna kami chowking, gusto ko ng Halo Halo! so kahit malamig kumain ako nun. hahaha.

Sat Night- Last day ng dreamweaver class ko. We ended around 9pm na, ok naman presentation ng pink na website na pinresent ko. hahaha! nagreact talagang pink noh? hahaha. I got my certificate na din. yey! baka magenroll uli ako after ng batch na ito ng flash animation or digital imaging or PHP programming na. Nag crave ulit ako after my class! i want the fried squid sa Tokyo Tokyo!!! soo happeee at dun kmi nag dinner yippeee!!!

Sunday Night- Nanuod kmi ng close friend kong si Xley ng Fantastic 4, but while waiting for him nag ikot2 muna ako naghahanap ako ng Bookstore i'l buy sana yung book na "How to find your One True Love ni Bo Sanchez" but wala akong nakita. tsk tsk. My nakita kong chucks na pink yey! baka il buy it next week.then ayun dumating na din si X... Actually, Post Father's Day celebration yun eh! waaahahaha. kase nung Mother's day, we watched Spidey, ako daw ung Nanay nya. (tado ka ah! haha) Ngayon cya Tatay, so quits lang ha?! hahaha. Gawin kaya nating Tradisyon ano? haha. toink!!! Ok naman for me ung movie ang cute nung isang guy gusto kong i-hug plus tsup-tsup! haha. after ng movie nagutom ako at nag crave uli ako. gusto ko ng Shawarma Plate, So niyaya ko si Itay (haha) sa Q.ave to eat sa Mister Kabab buti hindi kami na pick up! haha. yey! nakain ko ang mga gusto kong kainin nitong weekend except for WHAM BURGER!!! dbale kakain ako nun ds week. hmp.

*** btw, my beloved baby, bebeh and honey Tiffany (Mini Pinscher dog) died. I cried when i found out that she's dead and saw her body lied near our back door. huhuhu. ang lungkot ng setting, my lil bro cried out loud at nagwawala then he tried to shake Tiffany's body baka daw gumalaw pa.. pero wala na eh. lahat kmi malungkot. my mom also cried. I heard her inquiring how much ngaun yung mini pin but id rather wag na muna mag alaga uli. kase masakit eh pag nawala.... =( i missed tiffany now. ma mimiss ko yung biglang tatalon bed... sasalubong pagdating ko... sisiksik sa tabi ko....napapasaya nya ako pag malungkot ako. haaay TIFFANY (Sept 11, 2006- June 24, 2007) ma miss kitaaaaah =(

Whoa!

2007-06-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

What's new na ba? tinatamad ako mag blog. uhmm ayun, we went last friday sa Punta Fuego, my 2nd time na. Nice ung place. Ciempre hindi mawawala ang picture taking! (just check my multiply na lang) hehe.
Happy naman, umulan ang saya, first time kong maligo sa ulan at the same time nasa beach! yey! ang dami ko din kinain ang sarap eh... hehe. Nung pauwi na, ang gulo namin tuksuhan at okrayan. we played "dugtungang kanta" hanggang sa magsawa na at wala ng magdugtong. hehe low bat na ang energy ng lahat. 11pm na din ako nakauwi. haaay ang saya. another memorable day again. =)
--- Kinabukasan, waaah ang sakit ng katawan ko, my pasok pa ko. wala ako sa mood, inatake nanaman ako ng pagkamoody ko. mejo late pa ako, buti late din nagstart ang class, ayun sa class wala din ako sa mood, ewan ko ba. natulog nga ako eh hindi nakita ng prof.hihihi. after ng class we went sa Galleria for a dinner, parang last supper haha ang dami kong food, dinaan ko na lng sa kain ang pagka moody ko that day for no reason. weird!
--- Sunday... REST. yun lang.
--- Monday... After my work, nagdinner kami ng friend kong c Chelot (grabe na miss ko ang babaeng yan!)sa Greenbelt, we decided sa tropezz resto since andun din ang mymp at iba pang band... happy at nag enjoy kami, kasama din namin si Jimson.
--- Nung hating gabi na tinext ko yung close friend kong si Xley regarding nga sa nagpapabagabag (ang lalim) sa akin, ang gulo kase eh or ako lang ba nagpapagulo? whatever! hahaha. kase naman eh. bakit nga ba ganun? hahaha. yun ang tanong ko, at ang tanong din ng isang close friend ko na c Johnna. hahaha. nakakaloka. but anyway! Happy pa din =)
--- Tinatamad akong tapusin ung project ko sa dreamweaver, pero ginagawa ko din naman, kase inuuna ko pa ang mag aral ng photoshop at kung ano ano pa! haha. ang sarap mag aral. yun lang. =)

Whaaattiiilyk!

2007-06-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

May gusto akong bilhin na books na nakita ko sa National, gusto kong magshopping galore, gusto kong bumili ng bagong hardisk na 120gb, gusto kong dagdagan ng memory ung PC ko, gusto kong irepaint ung Computer table ko ng color pink, gusto ko ng 19 inches widescreen LCD, gusto ko nung nakita kong laptop, gusto ko ng i-pod video, gusto ko ng new cam, gusto ko ng sariling business, gusto ko ng madaming projects/raket (web) soon!!!, gusto ko... "cya" hahaha. pero isa isa lang... LAHAT yan mangyayari! mark my word!!! this is the spirit! i claim it. AMEN! Yeah Cheerz!!! ;-)

ExXxcited.

2007-06-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

Yez... We are all excited for our Getaway in Punta Fuego on friday! After months of stressed and sleepless nights (haha exXxag!) Finally... This is our time to bond and relax!!! I'm gonna miss my Trumpets Family. I learned a lot sooobrah!!! yeaaah!!!... more more! act more! dance more! "its a place to beeee a staaaar!!!" hahahahahaha live life to the fulleeeest Sana maging HAPPEE taung lahat!!! muaaahugz. Happee!!! Happee!!!! Happee!!! woohooooo!!! I wanna screaaaam!!!

Lesson 101

2007-06-11T18:57:00.000+08:00

-Today's Lesson-
Paano Gumawa ng Blogspot template Layout?

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1.Kailangan ng Kompyuter.....2.Mag isip ng disenyo
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3.Isip pa.............................4.Simulan na pag gawa

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5.malapit na matapos...........6.Sakit na ng ulo ko
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7. teka nagriring fon ko ........8. tapos na! yehey!

---Ang dali lang noh. sana may natutunan kayo! ;-)
sa susunod uli... friendster layout naman!

Mixed Emo.

2007-06-09T19:52:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I went to Bagaberde to watch Flipside and MYMP, it's one of my form of relaxation whenever I'm tired and stressed from work and everything kahit na nakakapuyat din, Panalo sa kwela ang Flipside, Winner ang Michael Jackson nila! haha. They also sang Happy by Squareheads, naalala ko ang mga Budz ko! after their set, MYMP naman- Gustong gusto ko talaga version nila ng Friend of Mine!, Robby Romero was also there to perform (Ms.Carla's new Artist) He sang a John Mayer song. Nice voice ha! Dami ding tao after the gig we went muna sa bandroom konting chika, picture then uwi na.

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There's an upcoming blessing sana but I decided not to accept it with my whole heart. I trust God that there's something more waiting for me & I like what I'm doing now. Sana I could get what i want soon and I promise to work for it by hardwork and faith! ---
I'm excited for my upcoming post summer getaway next week.
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I'm bored with my blog layout so Im thinking of changing it soon.
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I'm in the midst of confusion someone made me feel like this, there are questions in my mind but I'm happy anyway! Thanks for the appreciation.
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I accepted already that some things are not meant to be. so let it go...and Be Happy.
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Study more!!! ;-)

I did it kanina using Adobe Photoshop CS2... experiment!
(parang ewan. haha)

wheEew!

2007-06-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I went to the ofc to finish some tasks... around 1pm na din ako nakarating, went 1st to Musicademy to get something then went to Pioneer, after a couple of hours I went back to Musicademy to meet JC for a radio ad recording in Makati. It went well naman after the recording balik Shangrila to eat and to give the Cd to kuya Jo for the AD Board clearance. almost 11pm na din ako nakauwi mejo traffic... (nakatxt ko din c krizzy at pipay, hmm... pareho cla ng advise. pag untugin ko kayo eh! haha.dont worry, natauhan na ko- slight) lolz!

--- Kanina, Nag self study ako (new life. hehe) It's a must! I saw a target company na gusto kong applyan but i need more portfolios to upload soon. haaayz. Suddenly, while Im serious studying... my grandma entered my room and lend me a book that i should read daw... Its already open to a page na sinadya ba? haha... hmmm at heto ang nabasa ko... "I now dissolve and put aside all negative, limiting beliefs about where I will work and what kind of job is available to me. I open myself to all of God's possibilities. I call for a perfect, satisfying, well paying job to manifest in my life. I am always in the right place at the right time, for the spirit of God directs my steps. (Prov. 16:9; Rom 5:17) hmmm....
--- btw, back to our radio ad... Kuya Jo texted the bad news a while ago... Ad Board did not approved our radio ad!!! (aaaaw!) We need to edit it, So i texted someone from Soundesign if the sound engineer could edit the ad at tanggalin ung isang statement dun. haaay. I will work for it tom. *sigh*. toink.
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Anyway!, I made my own banner ad for my new biz (experiment lang). hahaha filingera!-->

Ü Lo000oose!

2007-06-06T00:34:00.000+08:00

Last Monday AM, i found out that my beloved PC was... dead???... ahuhu. Power supply Failure. wala pang one year amf. gusto ko ng ayusin but i need to go to work. Sa work nakita ko ung dati kong crush (*wink*) at yun tinukso tukso na naman ako dun, kahiya! haha. After work Oli and i met at Starbucks Podium dahil nagpapasama cya bumili ng pang get-up nya for her most awaited date este gimik.haha. Pati ako napashopping na naman amf. Anyway happee naman!!! nilibre nya ko sa Jobee yehey! aba dapat lang kase pinagod nya ko noh.haha. todo shopping galore ang lola mo. Paguwi ko... I tried to fix my PC but di ko talaga magawa, so i used muna my vintage laptop para makapagonline lang to check on something and to read some forums re: power supply failure.
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Kanina... I decided to bring my PC to Cyberzone kung saan ko cya binili. too bad hindi ko kaya magisang dalhin yun so my grandmaaah asked someone if he could drive the car for me, going to North! (haay promise talaga mag aaral na ko magdrive!!!) Then nung nasa byahe na, i realized... CODING pala!!! waaah Thank God! nalagpasan namin ang nagkalat na LTO. hehe. At the Shop... Yeah PSU failure nga problem, they will replace the defected PSU after two weeks? (waaah two weeks? hindi pwede!!! pano na ang portfolio, project and everything!) so i decided to buy one na, no choice eh. amf. (gastos na naman!) ok lang basta HAPPEE .
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Sa hauzzz... i fixed again my PC at yun ok na. back to normal life... haha. afterwards, i heard this "new original demo song" (ganda!) na uhmmm sukat sakin? (akalain mo!) "haaaay" yun na lng msasabi ko. Sana...hmmm.
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on the otherside...

Popeye: wapppaaaaaak!
Brutus: Kaboooooom!
Popeye: Tongoingoingoingoingoinkkk!
Brutus: Booooom! pak pak pak!
Popeye: Aaaaaawwww!
Brutus: Wahahahahahahaha!
Popeye: 0____0 huhuhu END GAMEOVER!
(natalo na si Popeye...aaaw)

?!@!&^!???

2007-06-03T00:29:00.000+08:00

I'm soOo bored eventhough I'm keeping myself busy. weird? I want to swim, I miss the beach, I miss mah old fellas, I want to go to Mango Camp, wanna try wall climbing and racing. I just want to enjoy everything. Lot of questions running in my lately and just keep it to myself. These past few days? Aaay na sad ba naman akoh... Y? ah basta kulit ko kase eh weh!
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btw, I'm happee for my friend for what's happening in her life now, after all the SH%&*s! that she's been through,I hope everything will turn out right. GO gurl! remember our goals and the "criterias" haha! basta happy ako sau sana this is it na like what i told yah. basta happy u, happy din ako. lab ko mga fewnds ko at loyal eh kaya minsan kahit iniiwan iwanan na ako, go pa din! pag hindi ako kailangan? wala nang pakialaman. pwo, go pa din ako! lol. yun lang antok na kooo. pwo teka...
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waaah dami ko nanaman natutunan sa class ko kanina, mga questions na ganun pala yun!? wow! naiinspired tlaga ako. Salamat sa mga certain peeps na inspiration ko. serious na ko promise this is it heto ang gusto ko. nga sobrang nakakatawa pa nung paguwi namin kanina yoko na wento antok na ko. basta naiinspired ako sa goal ko ngaun i wanna fly!!! sama ka? pero mukhang ayaw mo naman.. cge ok lng. yngat. Godbless! haha. cno ba kausap ko? waah antok na nga kase ako eh babye!

So Perfect =)

2007-05-30T20:04:00.000+08:00

Today?...i used my spare time sa hobby ko na malapit ko ng carereen! ;) nagpractice ako mag web layout at gumawa din ng Slide show ng So Perfect ng MYMP. Thanks to Jovi for the pics. Good job dude! & Thanks also to Ate Lisel for the pics that she took sa shooting ng MTV nila ju sa St.James. We will post it also sa MYMP Website: www.mympband.com

click here
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OT

Yesterday, I went to Podium to meet Rissa & attended technical meeting for Promil Event in Greenhills. It went well naman, after the meeting we went back to Podium na but before going home niyaya ko muna si Ate Amor nag magwindow shopping pero nakapagshopping kami ng di oras! haha ang BI ko talaga... i bought new skinny jeans, 2 cute blouses and pair of black flat pointed shoes. hahaha shopping galore kami. sabi ko magtitipid na ako! hehe. hapee naman, hmp.hehe. Oli texted me also because she needs a full attire for her gimik, I'm her offcial fashion guru kase. yun lang ang boring ng araw. hahaha. wala ng gumugulo sakin. LOLz

You can't stop the beat!

2007-05-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

Sooo busy, happeee, sometimes inizzz... Naiinis ako last week, i feel sooo outcast. amf. basta. behave na lang ako. Anyway!, Showcase galore na.Ganda ng Company Call nila Maits & JC. congrats, I love the song "True Colors" also Forever Friends of T.Jun O. but what i love the most is ung Hairspray ni Johan! galing! 3 thumbs up! ( You can't stop the beat! hehe) Nice talaga ung mga songs. 1 week of shows pa... lapit na mag end ang Playshop :(

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About my Class? yeah I'm enjoying it now, dami kong natutunan, sooo excited to learn more... I realize that this is what i want, I'm doing some layouts now for my portfolio. It's nice to be back in IT world!!! :)
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Im happee for my bro and his wife for their baby boy soon. also he got a new better job! hmmm & a new car?! new laptop?!... nice bro!... and guess what? my momma already allowed me to drive/use the car! (kunyari pa yun... sakin din bibigay yun! haha), I will take driving lessons after my dreamweaver course. yehey karera na toh este road trip na toh wooohooo! Nice to have wheels din para atleast safe pag gagabihin ng uwi.
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hmmm. I think... It's over... it's really over... will try to get over! hahaha. Anyway!, I'm Happee... inspite of everything, there's someone out there na di ko naman ineexpect e naaalala ako sa simpleng "hi" at "kamusta" sana di ka magbago, salamat sa fwendship. salamat sayo... ;)
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Way back into love...

2007-05-22T14:10:00.000+08:00

Song from Music and Lyrics.
Fave ko yan, nice tinugtog nila ju ito nung sat =)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration  Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love  
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Aaawww...

2007-05-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

One of my favourite forwarded messages that I got a while ago, Thanks!... I’m sooo touched and enlightened with this message and yes this is TRUE and I want to share this message with yah all!

"I guess there's just a point in my life were, I just have to accept that not everything I dreamed or hoped for will come true, A time when I just have to gather the courage to let go and just entrust everything to God, knowing he wont allow me to be in pain for the sake of hurting but for the sake of learning. I truly understand that He knows me more than I know myself, that even when I feel alone and misunderstood and even sometimes unloved and used there's still someone who knows all my flaws yet loves me unconditional like no one can.."

Im so so so....

2007-05-16T22:53:00.001+08:00

Im so so so.... btw, lapit na matapos ang playshop, showcase na! parang kelan lang huh... nakakamiss, this is my last term na kase (naks!) mamimiss ko ung mga tao dun =(
---Yeah my class started at MFI, last sat (May 12). I was surprised to know that my friend Karen was also enrolled. Too bad, Oli can't make it because of her Grandpa's Internment. We learned HTML which i already studied before, parang nirefresh n lng ung knowledge ko, In just 4 hours madami ng natutunan =) Im still thinking for my "topic" for the next session. I'm excited too to learn the power of dreamweaver! Dapat I'm going out with a friend but hindi natuloy... I want sana to go to Eastwood but mejo pagod na din ako... My friend Johnna texted me that she saw MYMP (my fave band) performing... Sayang but it's ok, I'm going to their gig naman on the 19th.
---Sunday... Mother's Day, I went to the church, Mother's day special but wala akong mom! haha! i bought her cake. Anyway! I'm thinking of going out, mejo boring kase wala naman ako makasama then my friend Xley texted me if we could watch movie since hindi din natuloy ung lakad nya.We watch movie sa Promenade, Greenhills. Nice ung cinema, i like the concept of the interior and the exterior of the place. after watching we stayed muna sa starbucks then uwi na... hindi pa ko makatulog so nagonline muna ako... naka confe ko din mag college buddies ko, some friends and my ex-ofcmate Jerome,na kausap ko tungkol sa isang seryosong bagay. we're talking about something, something that bugging my head lately =( thanks for all the advices dude. salamat sa matinong usapin! I really appreciate it sobra sana sana... lam mo na un pre! I know that GOD will make a way. ayt? =)
---Monday...Election, before that, Im talking to my bessy sa YM... same topic, tungkol sa kashongahan ko, parehas sila ng advice ni Jerome sa kin... ganun talaga bakit kaya may mga tao talagang INSENSITIVE?. hmmm Anyway!!! my mom and I went to the precint before 3pm humabol pa kami... ayun vote na kmi. ok naman sana naman walang kadayaang magaganap! haaayz hehe!
---Tuesday...After my work. I went out with a friend. yun lang... hahaha =)

***to sum up all!!! lately talaga, shonga shongahan ako. mixed emotions= happy, excited, surprised, sad, disappointed, hurt, happy, sad, hurt, confused... yun lang. btw si fwendship Oli, tamputampuhan pa! dba nagkakaintindihan naman tau pag ganun? hmp. haha. wabyah fwend! =)

"i never knew what love was...til i met you..."

2007-05-08T00:30:00.000+08:00

Til I met you... performed by Juris & Chin
Guesting at Sharon last May 6. =)
Enjoy the vid!

Puerto Galera Trip

2007-04-28T16:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah! After my Potipot Island Trip... Puerto Galera naman (April 21, 22 and 23), with friends- Chris,Kaiku,Xley,Badjo and Camille! 3 days kmi dun, syang nga lng at nauna ng umuwi ung 2, busy kase ang buhay hehe. happy naman, minsan boring pag ala ng magawa! hahaha! Ang daming tao, girls, guys and gays haha! 1st day namin, nagswimming kmi, ung iba natulog, nung gabi nag alay lakad kmi haha... then bumili cla ng drinks na dinala namin sa house, we watched TV, kwentuhan, inom, kain... then mejo nahilo ko ng konti, ewan ko ba. mga 5 minutes lng naman haha. ayun mejo tired na din kaya we decided na matulog na... 2nd day, I woke up around 8am, nagbreakfast kami then swimming and pichur! haha... umuwi na din cna Badjo at Camille huhu. sayang. around 1pm we ate halo halo na puro sahog! hahaha. then chika muna at bumalik sa uli sa beach, ligo, pichur... nung gabi na we stayed sa seashore, kain, inom, kwento! then kumain uli sila... ako hindi na, sumama pakiramdam ko at naiba ung mood ko. Hindi ko tuloy natikman ung choco shake, nawala ako sa mood e. (downloading mode) haha. then ayun tulog. kinabukasan last day, we went dun sa kabilang side ng sea, we climb dun sa mountain, matarik cya at mejo nakakatakot, lakasan na lng ng loob! gusto ko ung mga ganung adventure eh... challenging!!! ganda dun sa part na un.. ciempre hindi nawala ang pichurs haha... yun lng after nun madali na kmi pabalik ng house to prepare. Nagpahenna na din kami, we took our lunch late na, na move pa ung flight namin (hahahaha sasakay ng airplane??? boracay??? hahaha) ng 2pm kase di kaya ng time namin. bitin! haha. ayun uwian na.... huhu! work nanaman haaaay! anyway, masaya yung trip. sa uulitin mga dude!!! ang itim ko na. shocks nasayang ang glutha ko!!! amf!!! hahaha =)

more pix at my multiply account

Potipot Island Trip

2007-04-28T15:47:00.000+08:00

Last April 14-15, 2007. We went to Candelaria, Zambales with friends- Ivy, Jen, Mic, Levy and Heidi. 3 am nung umalis kami from Hagonoy, We stayed at Ivy's house firs then around 7:30am ng dumating kami sa Zambales. Pagdating ng Cottage, we fixed our things and grilled our food- Liempo, Chicken and Tilapia! yum-yum! around 10am nag pahatid na kami sa boat going to Potipot Island. We ate our lunch at Potipot... we stayed there upto 3pm and finally decided to go back to Isla Vista. ang init kase! then we slept until 6pm, after we ate our dinner we stayed at the seashore watching the stars and some fireworks! Nagvideoke din kami and played table tennis. Kinabukasan, after we ate our breakfast. nagswimming na uli kami this time sa beach ng Isla Vista, overlooking Potipot Island. Ang saya!!! but time's up! we need to check out by 11am huhu. bitin but it's another memorable summer getaway! =)

More pix at my multiply account.

Crush! (as of this moment haha)

2007-04-05T00:55:00.000+08:00

Try nyo din sa mga blogs nyo haha =P Natuwa lang ako eh. hehehe
1. Ang crush ko ay nasa ibang section/nsa section ko. - malayo! haha
2. Ang first letter ng crush ko ay- ayaw. =P
3. Ang nagus2han ko sa crush ko ay- humble sobra at nice
4. Ang gus2 ko itanong sa kanya ay- crush mo din ba ko? haha
5. Ang ayaw ko sa crush ko ay- sobrang pagkabusy nya haha
6. Marami/walang nkkalam kung cnu crush ko- ay 4 lang ata.
7. Ayaw/gusto kong ipaalam sa crush ko narrmdman ko- ay ayoko...
8. Ang crush ko ay si- mojacko tapos ako si shishuka haha
9. Gusto ko na ang crush ko at ako ay- magbonding at magjamming!!!
10. Palagi/minsan ko syang naiicp- minsan na lang =P
11. Ilan naging crush mo?- di ko na lam eh
12. Alam na ba ng crush mo na crush mo sya?- di. pro crush din daw ako nun?
13. Palagi ba kaung nagkkita?- hindi nga eh. =(
14. My ibinigay na ba ang crush mo sau na khit ano?- dapat kaso naiwan nya
15. Nag-uusap ba kayo?- yup text text or pag nagkikita
16. Kelan mo ippalam sa kanya n crush mo sya? -wala ko balak ipaalam
17. Inaasar k b ng mga kaibigan mo sa kanya? - may nanunukso lang
18. Kung my gus2 kang hilingin pra sa crush mo, anu i2?- sarili ko haha!
19. Ano ang particular n incident kung bkit mo sya nging crush? - yung masarap kausap at ang bait nya, dami kwento. hindi boring, humble!
20. Sa tingin mo, mbbsa nya ba ito?- ewan. hehe

Pag tinopak nga naman...

2007-04-03T23:15:00.001+08:00

EMO MODE

Haaay, I dunno... I can'y describe kung ano yung feeling ko ngaung gabing ito? bakit ganito? Nafrustrate lang din cguro ako dahil hindi natuloy yung Sagada Trip ko dapat this holy wed to black sat. (pero hindi ang babaw nun) haaay. So, i will end up watching DVD's na lang or maybe ayain sila mommy or kuya to go somewhere. haaay.Dami ko gusto gawin pero bakit hindi ko masimulan? (Jhellai wake up na!!!) Ang daming nagbago. Sana hindi na lang nangyari yun, di sana...oh well. Maybe may kailangan matutunan. Sabi nga lahat ng nangyayari may reason =) That's why... Nahuhurt din naman ako eh kala lang ng NILA wala akong pakialam, I'm not vocal about it nga lang. Sa sarili ko na lng. Maybe you don't understand what Im talking about. They can say whatever they want to me and its none of my business anymore. But alam ko...Matutupad ko din ung mga bagay na yun!!!. "S-O-R-R-Y", I know one day you'll be PROUD of me for whatever it is... Sana naiintindihan din nila ako. Napapagod din ako. Minsan na fifeel ko iniisip ba nila ako? kamusta ba ako? my problema ba ko? or tanungin man lang ang nararamdaman ko? or iniisip lang nila yung gusto nila mangyari at gagawin ko para sa kanila?... magagawa ko din yun alam ko, pasensya na.

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May naiisip nanaman akong hindi ko dapat na isipin. yez... whatever!!! heto na lng sasabihin ko i got this quote from my friend " Dont hold on for too long to what's never meant to be, sometimes we need to things free before it hurt us badly" pero bakit ko nga daw ba pinapangunahan dba? Ok ill follow the wind and live my life to the fullest!!!... Let's See what wil happen next. pero my isa pa eh, shockz!!!... next time na lng lol! =)
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FRIENDS
I miss all of my FRIENDS. Thanks to mah friends! walang sawang suporta salamat sa award... este sa pakikinig sa mga walang kwenta kong story haha!. To bestfriend yeah thanks I'm glad that we're getting in touch again kahit mejo na lost tau dahil sa dami ng nangya2ri sa buhay. To my close friends na hindi nakakalimot sa mga updates kilala nyo kung cno kau!!! hehe! at sa new found but old and now close friend (tama ba? sensya sa kadramahan ko minsan ha? haha! cguro natatawa ka sa drama ko? haha joke) naks! salamatz nyahahaha!
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SUMMER TIME!!!
looking forward for my Bitch trip oh sorry I mean beach trips!!! Uhmm Island Hopping at Zambales & Puerto Galera Trip soon! wipeee!!!
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PLANS
* Driving Lesson with Ate Cha maybe this April or May
* Enrolling at MFI
* Going back to the IT World (goodbye entertainment world- hahaha)
* My own business sana this year...

That's all for now :P
Im Sleepy...
Im currently listening to... the sound of the fan inside my Comp's CPU. lol

Memorable Event

2007-03-31T23:02:00.000+08:00

Last March 24, 2007 Wedding Day ni Kuya! I woke up late around 10am kase naman 4am na kmi natulog sa katatawa. Haaay! Then I took a bath na kase ise-set ung Hair ko kase gusto ko kulot hehehe. Busy ang lahat ng tao sa bahay. Excited cla? haha! All Set na kami then We went to the venue-->

It's almost 5pm. Hindi pa nagsisimula. I was teasing my brother kung dadating ba ang bride nya(haha!) Then wait muna kmi nila mommy at daddy and some relatives. You know what happened? It Rained. waaah. But It's a sign of Blessing, un nga lang umulan- haaay, They were teasing me na if i will marry wag daw garden wedding! Cge Beach na lng para pag umulan, Swimming na. hehehe! So nadelay ang wedding, Instead of 5pm, naging 6pm. The Ceremony went well led by Bishop Romeo Corpuz, Busy busyhan ako dahil sa mga part ko, Kaya pala Maid of Honor. as in "maid" ang role ko haha just kidding :) Ciempre picture-picture at todo pose while nagpapapirma kami ng marriage contract sa mga principal sponsors. Then after the ceremony, picture ulit! then kainan na... at madami pang nangyari na talagang nangarag ako. Tama lng din ung mga guests, hindi madami hindi din konti :) Ciempre chika with my relatives and everyone in the world! haha. It's nice seeing them again. Ang sakit ng paa ko as in, taas ng heels ko eh. Sobrang nakakapagod. It ended around 9pm na din. Ang cute ng cake. tawa kmi ng tawa ng friend ko kase feeling ko daw debutant ako.--->

haha! funny talaga. Grabe nakakapagod na day! Well il upload ALL the pictures sa multiply ko soon!!! So Watch Out!

Night Out with Sistah

2007-03-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

Last Mar 23, I went out with Ivy to watch Sitti's Concert at the Music Museum. Thanks Michelle for the tickets! ;) We ate first at Shang-rila after my work, then took a cab going to the venue. About the show? the front act ( i forgot her name) did around 5 songs while playing piano. pwede na... hehe! then Sitti came with her sexy but classy outfit. of course she did bossa numbers. She introduced Aia of Imago as her first guest. She's cute at nakakatuwa cya,present din sina Jet Pangan of The Dawn and Mo Twister.So far ok naman ung show, my part lng na mejo na bore me... zzz! but anyway, after the show we walked around the place dahil mejo gutom uli ako hehe. we end up sa Mister Kabab sa Q.Ave I'm craving for their shawarma plate e! Around 1:30am we went home na at sa house namin kami tumuloy, ciempre chikka to the max and nag reminisce ng mga old pics namin tawa kami ng tawa sa mga sarili namin! 4:30am na hyper pa din kmi considering na kinabukasan e wedding pa ng kuya ko. so kamusta naman ang eyebag? haha! so ayun natulog na din kmi! buti naman.hehe :)

Ivy "Missin the town!" haha

TGIF a movie & serious talks... :)

2007-03-17T13:29:00.000+08:00

It's Friday night again. Time to relax and unwind. Johnna texted me if we could meet after my work to watch movie (last full show). I txted her back to say "ok", She also texted Oli and she agreed to watch with us. We watched Will Smith's - Pursuit to Happyness. The movie is nice, it's about the hardships in life. hmmm why is it happyness? not happiness?...

PTH Review

After the movie, we talked for about an hour about some important things. I wonder why great talks happened at night?.*haaayz* It's almost 1am so we decided to go home. I thank God for giving friends like them. Great & True Friends! lav yah guys! muaaah :)

Pictures

OLD EMAILS :)

2007-03-15T00:48:00.000+08:00

WARNING: THIS IS NOT MY ORIGINAL
THIS IS A FORWARDED EMAIL (at yung mga susunod pa)
GOT IT FROM MY FRIENDS FEW YEARS BACK.
(i posted it kase mukhang madami akong kilalang
makakarelate peace everyone! Enjoy reading!)

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PAALALA LANG PO HA:

eto eh galing sa isang taong...

hindi sa nakikielam...

pero gusto lang makatulong...

(SANA naman)...

at makapagbigay ng opinyon...

uulitin ko lang ha...

wala sanang masaktan...

KATOTOHANAN lang...

______________________

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HINDI BA KAYO NATATAKOT???...

as in sa mga bagay-bagay...

hello??...

getz,...

saan pa ba..

kundi sa mga LOVE life issues...

na tipong imbis na maging seryosong usapan...

eh nagiging pang-"TELESERYE" pa ang dating...

don't you know that it's not something to "LAUGH" about...

it involves PEOPLE..

people with feelings...

nws...

ang akin lang naman eh..

based from experiences ha!...

ang love ay hindi minamadali...

hindi pinipilit..

at lalong hindi kina-career...

IT COMES NATURALLY...

(hahaha... take it from me!!!... )

as in magugulat ka na lang isang araw...

magigising na SIYA ang nasa isip mo...

hindi pinilit na isipin ha...

basta NAISIP mo na lang basta...

mapapangiti ka na lang...

at basta na lang gagaan ang pakiramdam mo...

na tipong kahit mukha ka ng tanga...

eh ok lang sayo...

ngiti ka pa rin...

hindi nababase sa tagal ng pinagsamahan...

hindi rin sa dalas ng pagkikita...

hindi rin sa ilang beses na pagkakausap sa phone...

lalung-lalo nang hindi sa dalas ng pagte-text...

may MAGIC kasi yan eh...

magic na hindi naka-cast ng kung sinuman...

MAGIC na matagal na palang nandun...

hindi mo lang namamalayan...

isusugal mo ba yun???...

yung feeling na sobrang wala ka ng hahanapin pang iba???...

papabayaan mo bang masira yun???...

ASA PA!!!...

kaya nga eto lang yun eh...

wag na kasi kayong magmadali...

unang-una...

PAANO MO BA NASABING MAHAL MO NA SIYA???...

dahil ba natutuwa ka sa kanya???...

o kaya naman naaaliw ka???...

naswee-sweetan ka ba ng sobra sa kanya???...

kinikilig ka ba pag nakikita mo siya???...

at nahi-high kapag naririnig mo na ang boses niya???...

eh teka muna...

baka naman infatuated ka lang....

o kaya naman kagaya nga ng sagot mo...

BAKA naaaliw ka lang...

dahil kakaiba siya...

may spark na hindi mo maintindihan...

tsk!!!...

ang saklap nyan!...

pangalawa...

GAANO MO NA BA SIYA KAKILALA???...

madali ba siyang mapikon???...

pano ba siya mabadtrip???...

madali bang mahalata na may topak siya???...

ano bang suot niya pag nasa bahay siya???...

shorts ba o pantalon???...

nakasando ba siya o naka-t-shirt lang???...

matagal ba siyang maligo???....

kumakain ba siya ng vegetables???...

tamad ba siya???...

mas gusto ba niyang manood ng tv kaysa magbasa ng libro???...

nagpe-play station ba siya???...

tatlo ba ang pamangkin niyang lalaki???...

makukulit ba yung mga kamag-anak niya???...

green ba ang kulay ng gate ng bahay nila???...

sa village ba siya nakatira???...

may sakayan ba ng jeep na malapit sa kanila???...

nagsisimba ba siya linggo-linggo???...

kasama ba yung pamilya niya???...

at nagdadasal ba siya bago matulog???...

in short...

alam mo na nga ba???...

ang mga bagay-bagay...

ang mga simpleng bagay tungkol sa kanya...

na nagdedetermine ng sarili niya...

as in kung sino ba talaga SIYA...

pangatlo...

KAYA MO BA SIYANG TANGGAPIN???...

as in TANGGAPIN ng buong-buo...

sa lahat ng trip niya sa buhay...

sa lahat ng katopakan niya...

sa lahat ng pag-iinarte at pag-dadrama niya...

sa lahat ng kasalanang nagawa, ginawa, at gagawin pa lang niya...

sa lahat ng naiisip niya...

sa lahat ng sasabihin niya...

sa kilos niya...

sa pananamit pa pala niya...

sa pagsasalita...

sa pananaw niya sa buhay...

sa pagtrato niya sa tao...

sa lifestyle niya...

sa uri ng pamilyang meron siya...

sa uri ng kaibigang kasa-kasama niya...

sa style niya pagdating sa love...

sa kasweetan niyang natural...

sa paglalambing niya...

sa tawa niyang pagkalakas-lakas...

sa manners niya...

sa pagmumura niya...

sa bisyo niya kung meron man...

sa mga pang-aasar niya sayo...

sa style niya pagdating sa pagsolve ng problema...

sa problemang maaari ka ring masama...

pang-apat...

KAYA MO BANG MAGING TOTOO???...

kaya mo bang makita yung sarili mo...

na kasama pa rin siya ha...

sa isang sitwasyong pag naisip mo eh...

mapapaiyak ka na lang sa sakit...

nang dahil din sa kanya???...

kaya mo bang magmukhang tanga...

as in umiyak ng dahil sa kababawan...

ibuhos ang mga nararamdaman mo...

kahit na puro kababawan nga lang naman...

as in kahit sa harapan niya???...

kaya mo bang maging barubal pag kasama mo siya???...

yung tipo bang wala ka ng pakielam...

mawala man ang manners mo...

na wala ka naman talaga...

in short...

KAYA MO BANG MAGING IKAW KAPAG KASAMA MO NA SIYA???...

yung tipong hindi ka nahihiyang ipakita kung sino ka

talaga...

dahil alam mong...

HINDI MO LANG SIYA TANGGAP...

TANGGAP KA RIN NIYA...

BUONG-BUO RIN...

MGA TAO!!!...

tama na kasi ang trip...

tama na ang pagmamadali...

oo masarap ngang mainvolve sa isang tao...

pero diba mas masarap yun...

LALO NA KUNG ALAM MONG TOTOO YUNG

NARARAMDAMAN MO...

OLD EMAIL cont...

2007-03-15T00:44:00.000+08:00

Marami kang iniisip, naiisip at gustong isipin. Pero mas gusto mong
malaman ng lahat ng tao ang lahat ng kabangagan mo. Wala lang.
Magpapansin. Umasang may mag-rereply sa senseless thoughts mo. Mag-
advice. Magsabing, "Oo.. naiintindihan kita.."

Pero ayos lang sayo kahit di nila basahin to. Bakit pa? Sino ka ba?
Nakakadiri. Ayaw mong tuksuhin ka nilang, "yuck!! Ang mushy mo pala!!"

Sa lahat ng kaibigan mong humihingi ng advice tungkol sa pag-ibig,
ang sinasabi mo lang palagi, "Tange, kalimutan mo na lang yang
nararamdaman mo. Korni mo e. Ang OA mo pa. Guguluhin lang nyan buhay
mo." Ang sasabihin pa nila sayo, "Talaga? Buti ka pa, wala kang
lovelife. Di ka stressed. Di ka kinakabahan palagi --"

"At di ako mukhang tanga."
May na-offend ka na naman. Pero pakialam mo ba sa kanila? Totoo naman
a.
Tapos bigla mong mare-realize, may p roblema ka na rin pala. Hayop
talaga. Gusto mong sumigaw. Bakit may nanggugulo na rin ng buhay mo
ngayon?

Ang dami mong crush, grabe. Yung isang classmate mo sa Math17, isa sa
Hum1, dalawa sa Geog1, dalawa sa PE2, isa sa Math100 at isa sa
Chem16. Si Mike Bravo ng Maroons, si George Chia ng Blue Eagles, si
Kogore ng Shohoku. Si Dao Ming Shi at si Mei Zhuo ng F4. Si Enrique
Iglesias. Si Legollas. Si Ron Weasley.

Sixteen. Imagine?
Pero di naman nila ginugulo ang buhay mo.
Ayos lang di ba? Kaso may isang taong di mo maintindihan kung bakit
kahit anong gawin mo, talagang ginugulo pa rin niya yung buhay mo.
Para siyang mangkukulam. Kahit saan nakikita mo siya.

Inalis mo na noon yung pangalan nya sa phone mo. Kaso sinulat mo pa
rin yung number nya sa diary mo. Engot ka talaga. Tapos nilagay mo
ulit sa cell mo. Tapos inalis mo ulit kase nainis ka. Naihagis mo pa
nga sa kama mo yung phone mo e. Tapos naisip mo wala rin namang e
pekto kung nasa cell mo siya o wala? kaya nilagay mo na lang ulit.

Tapos binura mo na talaga ngayon. Panahon na para kalimutan na talaga
sya --- naiisip mo.
Okay na? Hinde. Mas malala.
Na-memorize mo na kase yung number nya. Tsk tsk tsk. Naaawa ka na
talaga sa sarili mo.
Naiinis ka pa kapag sinasabi sayo ng mga kaibigan mo, "Nakita ko sha
sa A.S. kanina." Asar na asar ka. Sabay sigaw with matching facial
__expression, "PAKEELAM KO?"

At magtatanong sila ng isang tanong na matagal mo nang hinihintay na
sagutin sa harap ng maraming tao: $B!&(B"Baket? Ayaw mo na ba sa
kanya?"

Tatahimik ka muna. Parang si Lei sa harap ni Tang Chin. Magbubuntung-
hininga. Tititigan silang lahat na naghihintay ng sagot mo.

Biglang magkakaron ng split personality disorder, ngingiti at
magsasalita: "Sino yon?"
Nagandahan ka sa ginawa mo. Effective. Wow, para talagang di na nya
kilala.
Biglang makikit a mo siya. Ayun. Mabubuwisit ka talaga. Maaalala mo
yung mga panahong pinagmukha ka niyang tanga. Yung panahong kailangan
mo siya. Yung panahong iniwan ka nya sa ere, Yung panahong
tinalikuran ka nya.

Masisira ang araw mo. Wala ka sa mood makipagtawanan. Sisigawan mo
ang kaibigan mong natapakan ang white rubber shoes mo. Gugustuhin
mong balatan ng buhay ang lahat ng taong nagtatanong kung bakit ka
wala sa mood. Hihilingin mong mong makapag-teleport ka papuntang
Egypt.

At bigla mong maririnig ang isa sa mga kaibigan mo, "Ganyan talaga
pag in-love!" May background pang mga palihim na tawa. At sabay-sabay
silang kakanta ng --- Why do birds suddenly appear?

Di ka makakapagsalita. Mararamdaman mong umiinit yung tenga mo, yung
leeg mo, yung mukha mo. Bigla mong maiisip ang pinakaepektibong
palusot, ngingiti at magsasalita, "Sino yon?"

Ayos na sana, kaso di mo naisip na mali yung statement mo. At bago mo
pa mabawi ang sinabi mo, sasabihi n na nila, "Baket? Me sinabe bang
pangalan??? Yak!! Halata!!!"

Feeling mo masusunog na sa init yung mukha mo.
Kahit anong pilit mong kalimutan siya, mabilis talagang kumalat ang
balita. Minsan naglalakad ka. May masasalubong kang dalawang taong di
mo kilala. Magbubulungan sila. Titingnan ka, mula ulo hanggang paa,
at maririnig mo ang isang bulong: "Yan ba?"

Grabe, ang ganda na naman ng araw mo.
Di mo na lang papansinin. Kahit nakikilala mo na sila. Isang araw
naman nakikipagkwentuhan ka sa isang ka-block mo. Gwapo. Niloloko mo
pa nga tong taong to na siya na ang pinakagwapong taong nakita mo sa
personal. Hehe, tawa nya. Ang saya-saya mo, biglang may dadaan sa
likod mo na dalawang taong di sinasadyang naging pamilyar na sayo.
Lumingon ka, at pagtalikod mo, nagsalita ang isa: "Pinagpapantasyahan
e no..." Sasagot ang isa pa, "Oo nga..."

Oh hindee!!! Anong nagawa mo??
Titigil ka na sa pakikipagkwentuhan. Aalis ka n a lang na punung-puno
ng sama ng loob.
Naaasar ka sa lahat ng tao. Bakit kailangang pakialaman ang buhay ng
taong ni hindi nila kilala? Bakit kailangang pagtawanan at ipagkalat
ang mga bagay na di na dapat pinag-uusapan? Marami pang version yung
mga naririnig mo sa kanila. Minsan ganito, "Siya yun." O kaya, "Ows?
Yan yon?" Hayop. Marathon eavesdropper ka kase.

Kahit ikaw mandidiri sa iniisip mo.
At matapos mong malaman ang lahat ng bagay tungkol sa kanya, kahit
yung nilihim nya at nalaman mo lang nung tapos na, naisip mong
kalimutan na lang talaga siya.

One time nakipag-chat ka.

musta luvlyf?

meron b?
...wlang kwenta

ows? bkt?

basta. wla syang kwenta.

mahal mo?

huh?

mhl mo p rn un.

weh

honestly, mhl m p rn ba?

argh!
ewan

wlang kwenta pero mhl mo?

tsk tsk < ; BR>Matitigilan ka. Tititigan mo yung monitor ng

matagal.

am i ryt?

hey

Ita-type mo yung "gtg" nang di oras. May kasama pang "nys miting u"
para di halatang nabwisit ka sa sinabi nya. Alt-F4. Disconnect. Shut
down.

Asar na asar ka na talaga sa sarili mo. Di mo na gustong mag-
teleport. Gusto mo na lang talagang ma-dissolve sa hangin.

Ikaw na ngayon ang nangangailangan ng advice. Pero walang kwenta
lahat ng sinabi nila. "Kalimutan mo na siya!" PAANO? "Wag ka kase
magpapaapekto. Wag mo isipin yung sinasabi ng ibang tao." HA?!? ANG
LABO!!! "Marami pang iba jan!" EH SIYA NGA LANG EH!!! Aasarin ka pa
kapag sinabi nilang, "Bakit di na lang si _____? Yihee! Okay naman
siya ah." Ngek, ano yun, ganon lang kadali?

Nakatitig ka ngayon sa monitor. Pabalik-balik ka lang sa lyrics.com,
sa CRS, at sa email composer mo. Nakakainis. Di mo na alam kung ano
pa ang sasabihin mo.

Tama, bwisit sa buhay yang feelings na yan. May magtatanong
pa, "Bakit mo ba yon mahal?" Wow pare, wala kang maisagot. Buti pa sa
Math pwede kang manghula ng formula, pwede mong paglaruan ang
solution mo. May partial points ka pa. Eh sa tanong na yon? Tsk tsk.
Malabong mangyari yon.

At kung BS Love and Affection ang course mo, 'tol' mas mabuti pang
mag-shift ka na lang sa BA Emotionlessness and Insensitivity habang
maaga. Malamang magkita pa kayo don.

Paulit-ulit mong sinasabi sa sarili mo na wala ka na talagang
pakialam sa kanya. Pero bakit pag nakikita mo siya, natitigilan ka pa
rin? Minsan, kaibigan mo na yung nagsasabi sayo, "O, kala ko ba wala
na?"

Tatawa ka na lang. Lalakasan mo par a di mahalata yung teary eyes mo.
Di ka na naman makakapagsalita. Litong-lito ka na. Di mo alam kung
bakit nga ba ganon. Kung bakit ka apektado. Kung bakit nagbabago ang
lahat pag nandiyan siya. Kung bakit gustung-gusto mo siyang bigyan ng
nerve cells para maramdaman niya ang lahat, Lahat.

Ngayon, ipapadala mo to sa mga kaibigan mo, sa mga ka-block mo, at sa
iba pang taong wala talagang pakialam sayo. Sa kanilang lahat, di mo
alam kung sino talaga ang may tiyagang tapusin ang ganito kahabang
senseless na mensahe. Di mo rin alam kung sino talaga ang mag-iisip
para sayo. Di mo alam kung sino ang maaapektuhan.

Somehow, gusto mong ma-disconnect ka na lang bigla. Maubusan ng
internet credits. Sabugan ng pc. Mag-brown-out. Biglang mag-collapse.
Umiyak. Malunod. Maging ipis. Uminom ng Skele-Gro. Mabagsakan ng
asteroid. Maglahong parang bula.

Kase, tama yung sinabi ng naka-chat mo. Sinasabi mong walang kwenta,
pero mahal mo.
Sobra.

OLD EMAIL cont...

2007-03-15T00:13:00.000+08:00

LoVe...LoVe...LoVe...FAILURES...wHy!?!

bkit kya dumdtng sa point ng isang tao yng nag-d-dlwang icp ka? afraid tht u might pick d wrong decision N regret it 4d rest of life!?
hav ya eva felt tht uve been so gaga over sum1 N yet we call it cRaZy...

but we neva thght how stupid we bc0me until we felt tht we've been hurt ??!

and how cum aftr ol d shtz uve been thrgh 2sum1, hurt u lyk no one elz did, still u say...

"MAHAL KO PA RIN SHA..." shetz...

sumtymz wre confused kng mkknig tyo sa tkbo ng utak nten or frm d feelingz we hve in our heart...
they say tht LOVE CONQUERS ALL....ye right!!!

mnsan, n-fe-feel nyo pa yng tipong may mahal k, pero mern nmn syng iba, or u fell 4ur friend but ur too afraid 2let it show coz ur fearing of rejection?

dialogue @d movie My Best Friend's Wedding which Rupert Everett said...

"If you love someone, say it...u say it right then...out LOUD...
or the moment just...passes you by..."

meron nmn yng situation na, tipong threz sum1 in ur lyf N u cld say n hez/shez 'd one' at mssbe mo rn n
mahal na mahal mo sha...but then, uve lost ur trust on him/her...yng tipong bngay mo n lhat ng trust mo nun una, tpos nwla lhat kc nlman mong hez/shez cheatin on ya? dba mskit??! SOBRA!!!

shempre u cnt help 2thnk tht he/she myt d0 dz 2u again, aftr uv gven him/her a chnce? N now, telln u dz promises tht uve heard a million tymz b4...

but then...what IF he/she broke dz promises in dz 2nd tym arnd?

ewan ko nlang...
--->>>i jz have 2say we can do cRaZy shitz 4d 1 we luv, xcept 2gve all of our tRUSt again...

4short...
itz really hard 2trust sum1 again once uve lost it...i gez it takez tym...

eh pno nmn yng sa situation n gs2 mo mkpg-break? but threz sumthn keepz u holdin bck, yng tipong nttkot kng msktan sha or msktan mo srili mo N regret it l8r tht u did it?

...sumtymz we cant blme ourslves for endng a reltnshp, mybe sa syd ng mga nsktan MaSaMa ka at MaDALi pra sayo un at ngppksaya kpa... i DoN't think so...

itz also really hard 2break sum1'z heart w/o wnting to..mnsan d mo nmn sha intend n sktan eh..bt u hav 2do it ryt then coz itz mch more painful if u ddnt do it ryt awy...tpos sa huli..ikw p yng masisisi at pustahan...ssbhin p nla sayo...

"BAKIT NGAYON MO LNG SINABI?
---partingz neva EASY...

N sumtymz nman u felt that uve given all uve got 2 give N stiLL it isn't enuf? stiLL it d0esnt work ryt?
or d0esnt receive anythn in return?
---itz d matter of giving, dont assume tht ull receive mch more of wht u xpect,...

mnsan nmn tipong two tymer k, d mo m-choose one over d otha...mahal mo nga sha pero may qualitiez nmn yng isa na ok at mssbe mong ngkksundo kyo in anyway...itz very hard 2choose dba?

well, gRoW uP!!!
now ur being SELFISH!
ohh well, uve gotta choose jz one person...N learn 2accept d fct tht 3 is alwyz a CROWD...

and tpos mern nmn yng situation n, mnsan bgla mo sha maalala..ya knoe...yer ex...reminiscn d ol gud tymz uve shared 2getha...somehow u miss him/her ryt? but then,..sumhow threz emptiness insyd of u n d mo mppgilan, N ur thnkin whether ur gonna do sumthn bout it or not, kc u myt be wonderin mybe hez/shez happy wid sum1 elze' armz na...

or scared 2 lose their pride chiken shitz for both partiez..

hw bout nmn sa mga taong hurt or bigo? w/o absolutely no idea why thyve been hurt...N mybe still figurin out whtz d reason of their breakup...

we usually tend 2smyl
but behind d curtains...we're DYIN....

mnsan, dindaan nlng nten sa pglalaseng toh w/our fellow brkadaz or get out of town N do sumthn as a relief 2urslf 4awhle...i blve thtz how it goez...

newy...dnt worry therez sum1 out thre who'LL b d one 2 ease ur pain away...jz widen up ur eyez..or u cld use ur high resolution reading glasses...coz tht myt help prhpz... lolz

...ull neva know...d person bsyd u in a bus myt b d one who cn spend d rest of ur lyf wid...hmmm...

mybe sooner or l8r... (betcha, im sure they will) they'll probably soon realized wht thyve lost N found...

oh well, 2bad;)...plaging nsa huli tlga and pagsisisi...
itz not ur loss....itz THEIRS...

mdme p jan noh..pDe bA!!!

---we truly neva know wht we've g0t til itz gone...

N we also neva thght d person we l0ved d m0st cld b d one who will hurts us d most...

ok letz jz put it dz way...

di k nmn kc ms-saktan kng d k nagm-mahal eh...
ns-saktan k kc nagm-mahal ka...

mnsan we'd prfer 2b hurt p nga dba?!?

in our point of our livez we shld be so LUCKY 2hav sum1 whoLL NEVA letz us go...

sum1 whoLL luv us even more...N sum1 whoLL cherish us 4d rest of our livez...

---lessons of luv cld brng us so mch pain...

i gez god jz letz us meet few people tht goez in and out in our livez...N those tymz myt be d unforgettable onez...

taughts us lessons in dz insane wrld of LOVE...
d more we've been hurt, d more we gain d lessonz...

but one thng is 4sure..we'll know how 2get up again wen we fall...

dnt b afraid 2 give urself a chance 2 luv again.. dont look back N look 4d qualities frm d past luv 2 someone new...we're diff kndz of people N has diff personalitiez...but, who knoez...threz mch more u can see in dz new pers0n, tht u can neva thnk of...

ending relationshipz doesnt mean itz d end of d story in a pocketbook,(or a book rather) but itz d beginning of a new chapter in lyf...

LOVE neva keptz as promise wid a word such as "FoReVeR"...

itz not jz a word tht is easy 2say..itz also a place 4us 2get there...

---actions speaks louder than words.

now, as i sat down in d front of my computer, mind spinnin,..bored,...lack of sleep...listenin d2 radio...playn an old skool whch is 4sure one of our fave luv songz of all d tym...

"...and itz tellin me IT MIGHT BE YOU, all of my life..."

dz linez keep circlin lyk butterflies on my head, wonderin who myt be d luv of our livez...

no one cld tell...

no one knowz...

god only knowz...

dz are jz some of d situations in LOVE. i cnt say tht im d one of thse pe0ple who knoez all shitz bout LoVe...im jz sayin dz coz ive learnt fr0m them alot...and sumhow ill cherish dz lessons tht left dz scars frm my past...lessons tht will teach me over N over agen...

i gz itz truly in d matter of our CHOICE in lyf...

gnyan tlga buhay prng lyf...tsk tsk tsk...

LoVe is feelin lyk ur in heaven, but it can also hurt lyk hell. but 1 thng is 4sure, uLL learn 2let go N luv sum1 elz more tht eva u did b4,dz tym it myt be xtra special, do sumthin wonderful dz day 4it will neva cum agen. d0nt live a lyf wid a regret.

take chances, make mistakez...

HAPPINESS - and thtz d only thing u can gve urslf anyway!

Mon & Tue

2007-03-13T22:32:00.001+08:00

-Mar 12, 06. Monday Night-

After our work, oli and I met at the MRT north ave station because we're going to the wake of ombie's grandma... it's almost 7:30pm. We took a cab going to the place. Inside the cab we just talked about the things that happened to us...(ang daming kwento as if hindi na matatapos, we're just enjoying the "talks" about... well, it's another story to tell!). We saw Conrad, Paul and Ombie at the lobby then we just talk- laugh- talk and laugh... until i told them na... "Guys? hindi ito Party!" Then we went inside na and talk about "it" again, of course oli and i exchanging stories... Mejo maingay nga lang kmi inside knowing na hello nasa "wake" tau. na miss namin ang kwentuhan. unlike when we're in college na almost everyday magkakasama kami. haaay nakakamizz :( around 9pm we decided to go home na kase my mga work din kami the next day. Conrad drove us kase same way din naman. bumaba na me sa may Quezon Ave and said goodbye to them. At the FX, "something's" bugging me again. i just get my mp3 player and played some music... kamusta naman puro senti ang playlist ko... "haaay!" i admit, I miss someone. Oh btw, It's Chin's Birthday! :)

-March 13, 2006. Tuesday Night-

After my work, I texted Oli if she wants to meet me at North Ave, I just want to stroll at the mall and buy something. She said yes naman. It's funny because nagkita kami sa Train. Then ciempre hindi natatapos ang never ending naming stories! dahil we both experiencing "challenges" (same as our friend johnna) haha! Oli bought something for her friend (hmmm) then we stroll at naghanap ng pants , wala kaming nakita at nabili. so we end up talking and talking and talking haaay! walang katapusan!!! kelan ba toh matatapos oli??? tapusin na natin game? haha! it's almost 9pm. pasarado na ang mall, haaaay, we decided to go home na din. Ewan ko ba, mejo naiinip me nowadays flexi kase sked ko sa work now unlike before na wala na akong time magisip (mas ok pala yun?) so i Need to make my move na (career move). Hey Jhellai! update your resume! I want to be busy!!! yung tipong ul go home na lng para matulog...But Oh i need vacation first. Im looking forward for my "extra challenge" vacation trip this holy week... hmmm and again, holy week na naman, hindi nanaman natupad yung wish ko last holy week of 2005 :(

Night Out...

2007-03-11T23:18:00.000+08:00

***I went out last nyt with for ju & chin's bday celeb at Bagaberde. Sabay2 kmi nila ate lisel papuntang venue. Happy naman, Ju sang songs from their new Album "New Horizon" and i love her rendition of "Sana Maulit Muli" with Oja on Keyboards. kakalungkot na song. hehe! Masaya that night dami food pero di me nakakain kase nabusog me sa kinain ko earlier tnx to ate Carla for accomodating us. uhm chika chika din with friends...picture taking haha! Tnx Jovi sa mga Pics! Kulit din ni Chin na hyper that night na tuwang tuwa sa cake nya pati sa lechon! hahaha. Si ju of course Happy din :) at Happy din ako. hehe! It was my very 1st time in my whole entire life na makauwi din ng 4am... hmmm dahan dahan kong binuksan ang gate at pinto... sabay labas ni mother! hehe! but she told me lang na matulog ka na... (haaay! bait ah hehe). di pa ko masyado makatulog kase pagod (& something's bugging my head- haaayz until the whole day na pagising ko...huhuhu) haaayz... :-/

pix from jovi

Happy Birthday Ju & Chin!

REACHING OUT

2007-03-11T23:09:00.000+08:00

I like this song :)

What must I do to make you understand
You mean everything to me
Don't have the strength to say
Give this heart of mine a chance
And maybe then you will see...

Refrain:
I'll do anything, do anything that you tell me
I'll be there, I'll be there if you need me.

Chorus:
Reachin' out to you
Do you feel it too
Lovin' you is all I wanna do
I'm completely sure
I've never felt this way before
When I smile you know that there is something more.

What must I do so I can make you see
The light that shines in my eyes
You brighten up my day
You even help me find my way
I wish you're always by my side

Refrain:
And I can't stop, don't know how to stop thinkin' of you
And I'll do anything, do anything to be near you...

Chorus:
Reachin' out to you
Do you feel it too
Lovin' you is all I wanna do
I'm completely sure
I've never felt this way before
Deep inside you know that there is something more.

WISH

2007-03-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

WISH
-Lifehouse-

so you found
a better hiding place than on the ground
inside the image
of who they think you are
I wish the best of everything for you
I hope you know that honestly I do
how long can you run
turn your back on everyone
just let me know
when you're tired of being alone
so you wait
all through the night and day to day
wait for the illusion of the perfect song
I wish the best of everything for you
hope you know that I honestly I do
how long can you run
turn your back on everyone
just let me know
when you're tired of being alone

DREAM

2007-02-25T16:47:00.000+08:00

There were two best friends named Nick and Andrea. Nick is a Bachelor and an Engineer in a reputable Company while Andrea is a Designer in her own Boutique. Andrea’s shop is near Nick’s office so whenever he’s free he always drops by to Andrea and shares his “hopeless romantic stories”.

“She brightens up my day…and every time I see her my heart keeps on falling and falling….” Nick giggles.

Andrea laughed and throws a piece of a satin cloth to Nick’s face.

“She’s always our topic. Why don’t you try to ask her for a lunch date? Dinner date? Movie date? Or whatever!?”

“It’s not easy…” Nick said

“Torpe ka lang! at guilty!!! hahaha!” Andrea teases Nick.

“Hmmm Actually, Me too Nick… I Think I’m falling in love with the man i met few months ago… He’s always in my dream and I can’t get him out of my mind” Andrea revealed.

Nick laughed and forced her to tell who she was talking about.

“Hmmm…a new found friend. I met him i think 10 months ago. Do you remember when we went to a party with our friend Ashley? He’s there… and that was the first time he smiled at me. At first it was like nothing but recently I woke up thinking of him. He gets my number when he catches me online, he gave to me his number too but we rarely texts each other. Sometimes he leaves offline messages…” Andrea smiled while holding a flower vase in her table.

“So how did he know your Chat ID? Nick asked.

“It’s another story to tell. Hahaha”

“Oh Whatever! Andrea I really need your help. What would I do? I’m in love with her… I’m planning to tell her what I really feel after I resign on my job soon. I don’t want to fall in love with her but I can’t fight my feelings. She makes me happy… She made me realize that life is beautiful.”

“Good for you… but Let’s control our feelings with them Nick!”

“Yes Andrea, control!”

“But anyway… It’s free to dream ayt?”

“Yes FREE!!!” Nick agrees.

“Remember Nick back in college. Sam courted me while Sophie came to your life. but me? end up single!” Andrea laughed.

Nick said “Maybe now? It’s the other way around!”

“Or… same? Will both end up with nothing! Hahaha” Nick and Andrea laughed

Andrea said…
“What if we will end up with them? I can ask him to watch some shows for you & your girl, for free! Since he is a musical director of some concerts and events. Hahaha! Then he will ask you about my favourites just to surprise me! Isn’t it cool? Hahaha! I can ask your girl about her beauty tips too! because I like her skin! Hahaha. You can also ask my man to help you arrange the songs you wrote before and dedicate it to your girl? Hmmm we will have double dates! We will go out of town trips! hahaha”

“Hey Andrea its funny! but it’s free to dream!!!”

The two keeps on laughing while seating on the green couch, suddenly a client came; Andrea goes back to her table to entertain her client. Nick realizes it’s almost 1pm and he needs to go back to his office.

“Hey Andrea, I’ll see you again soon, I’m going back to the office. I need to finish some projects. By the way thanks for your time and remember… It’s free to Dream!”

“Hahaha! See you again soon! Take care”

I Can't Make You Love Me...

2007-02-21T21:47:00.000+08:00

Turn Down The Light
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me
Tell me no lies
Just hold me close
Don't patronise
Don't patronise

'Cause i can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something that it won't
Here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And i feel the power
But you won't, no you won't

'Cause i can't make you love me if you don't
I'll close my eyes, then i won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Mornin' will come and i'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And i will give up this fight

'Cause i can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something that it won't
Here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And i feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause i can't make you love me if you don't...

The Promise

2007-02-18T22:46:00.001+08:00

I watched the movie "The Promise". It was reportedly grossed more than P10 million during its opening day(waaaah!). well, It's really nice. This film is directed by Mike Tuviera, Richard and Angel played more mature roles and I can say sobrang bagay talaga sa kanila ung role. I'm not a fan of Richard and Angel but maganda yung movie kahit my scene na imposible... (mah opinion). The settings, make ups, clothes etc, ok cya... Eugene Domingo (she played yaya) was so funny! :) at ang gwapo ni Richard & super gorgeous ni Angel. Ok din yung mga love scenes nila (haha!). Ang kulit nila pareho at katuwa ung arte ni Angel :) yung kasama kong nanonood eh nakakarelate daw cya... hmmm hahaha!!! oo nakakarelate cya dun sa yaya! hahaha. peace!!! :D pasaway! tapos natatawa pa cya pag sinasabi ko na kamukha ko si Angel! hmmp (nakakatawa naman talaga. haha) I like Angel's Hair kaya un ang papagawa ko sa wedding ko este ng brothah ko na wish ko lang ayusin na nila anong petsa na! hehe! well if u have time to watch.. try to watch it yun lang. :P

MYMP's 1st Araneta Concert

2007-02-18T22:28:00.000+08:00

I wrote this last Nov 19 2005. I think i posted it on my friendster blog... but il post it again here... I just want to reminisce! :) hahaha

Last Nov 18 2005, I watched MYMP concert ( mah 1st time to see them live). The show starts an hour late… 9pm to be exact. All lights turn off, the crowd screams. The intro of “Tell Me Where It Hurts” was played;Chin first came out followed by Juris and she start to sing “Waiting In Vain”. She was nervous! It was followed by “Get Me” with their MTV at the background. Medyo nervous pa din cya, making her voice low at parang kinakapos… After that, she explains the next song heto daw yung nagpakilala sa kanila… “A Little Bit”, people also participate in their song. Juris said na Sho-shock daw cya! After that, she sang “Kailan” and “Sa Kanya” It was a beautiful rendition. A medley of Songs followed such as “Pagdating ng Panahon, Moonlight Over Paris, Nasaan Ka na? and Let Me be the One”, this time Chin participated (vocal). After this, their guest appeared “Southborder”, Jay Durias was on the keyboard with the two other vocalists, and they sang “Let’s stay Together”. Jay Played the Theme song of Darna, and Juris sang on her own version. After that relaxing number, southborder sang “Ikaw Nga” Juris again appeared with her new outfit and they performed Freestyle’s “Sweet” (is it ayt?) but, it’s time for their first guest to say goodbye. Juris sang “Too Many Walls”, followed by “I’ll Never Get over you” grabe pag kinanta na nya ang ganda talaga. Next song is an OPM song, Juris says, theme song daw ng buhay nya! People wondered what song it is, yun pala it was a classic OPM song “Nakapagtataka” After that heartbreaking number, Juris change her outfit while Chin played on his guitar, intro of “Why” played, Juris appeared with her cute outfit and sang the song. It was followed by “Hand in my pocket”,”Don’t Speak”, “Ironic”, “Ought a Know”, “The Reason” (Chin on vocal) and Complicated. Galing ng production number na yon. After that, a music video was played “Music of Goodbye” a classic foreign song, sang by juris. (Change outfit at pahinga muna yung dalawa…) After that lumabas c juris wearing an 80’s outfit from the audience sa may patron. She sang Madonna’s hits such as “Borderline”, “Cherish”, and “Material Girl”. After that groovy number, she says, the next song is her personal favourite… “Crazy for you”, this makes people shout and scream! Pati ako kahit I’m crazy for… nothing! Hehe! After that pasok agad sa loob si juris after 30 seconds ata bumalik at naka Gown ang lola mo! She sang “Inseparable” after the number rest muna cya. Janno Gibbs came out and sang “Fallin” after that nagkulitan muna sila nila Juris at Chin they did the “Balakubak Portion”! yun yung nakakatawang part. After that, Janno and Juris sang “If I’m not in Love”. Again it’s time for janno to say goodbye. This time Juris was very emotional, she sang “Celine Dion’s Because You Loved Me” dedicated to her mom, family, friends and people who support them, she was crying while singing, she hugged her mom…it was a very touching part; it was her dream come true daw. After that emotional number she sang the songs from their versions album, “Talaga Naman” (cute!), “Constantly” (kind’ a relate! hmmmm), “No Ordinary Love” (I can relate before… hmMmm, lalo na yung line na: “This is not your Ordinary, No Ordinary Love, I was not prepared enough to fall so deep in love…This is not your ordinary no ordinary love, You are the first who touched my heart makes everything right again with your extra ordinary love…haaaay), “Beauty and Madness” (Chin on vocals), “Love Moves”(I hope, Love Moves for me in mysterious ways! :-P hahaha), “Tell Me where It hurts” (I want to sing this song for someone…sakin na lng yun! hope that someone will sing this song for me too…) and “Especially For you” (someday, someday...We’re going to sing this song …asaaa!)”grabe wala ako ma say sa portion na yan! Panalo talaga! Then, Juris explain that Christmas is fast approaching so she serenade us with a very touching and emotive Christmas ballad entitled “Merry Christmas” (one of my favourite Christmas Song) So tama na senti, she did fast number like Break Out (not sure for the title), Star, and the finale “Every Little Thing”. Haaaay the concert is over but that was a blast! It’s almost past 12MN late kase nag start eh, Grabe galing I’m looking forward to watch them again live. Congrat's MYMP Band!

Night Out Bday+Vday

2007-02-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

Last Feb 13, i went out with my friends. Bry Celebrated his 24th Birthday at Gerry's Grill- Morato. Nag meet kmi ni Oli sa SM north- nagcanvass pa kmi ng laptop, then we took a cab na going to the venue (infront of ABS-CBN) sayang 2 lng kmi ni oli na representative ng barkada. Busy kase sa work ung iba. but nameet namin mga officemates ni bry. So far... nabusog kmi ni Oli! (Thanks Bry!) i love the squid!!! yummy. After Gerry's hindi pa kami nakuntento. We went to a KTV bar- Music 21 (me, Oli, Bry & Fred). Nagconcert lng naman kami! pati ung friend ni Bry na si fred napakanta ng hindi oras! aayaw ayaw pa yun pala makikiagaw din sa mic. Ciempre mga themesong ng buhay ang mga kinanta, lalo na ang bday girl este boy na napakanta din! haha! It's funny pa kse by Artist ung songlist nila so mahirap maghanap kung hindi mo alam ang name ng artist. I texted a friend pa to ask for the artist ng "Nothings gonna stop us now". So when our turn came... ayan na Nothing's gonna stop us na! (yehey!) pero ang tumugtog eh "Nothing can stop us now- Rick Price". kamusta naman! hahaha. na frustrate kami. hahaha! & then when i came home i checked our playlist sa house tama naman na starship ung kumanta. haaay Music 21 haller!!! well yun lng almost 2 hours din km dun inabutan na din kmi ng Valentine dun hehe. well that's all for now... :)

Here's our pictures--->Bry's Bday Celeb

Kolehiyo koh

2007-02-10T22:35:00.000+08:00

Interesting survey got from my friendster bulletin!

taken last sept 2003- Laguna

Course mo? * BS Information Technology
Fave campus tambayan? * classroom or catwalk
San kau palage kumakain? * Budz Cafe, Mcdonalds, Tokyo2...
College life crush? * c **a***s!!! *wink*
Anong hindi mo mkkalimutan nung 1st year ka? * I met mah True friends and sino na nga yun?d bale wala namang kwenta un!
Pinaka nkakaasar na tao sa campus? * friend namin dati ngaun hindi na walang iba kundi c I**N!!! bwahahaha
Like math subject? * haaay ayoko nga eh :(
Fave mong kgroup pg groupings? * friends...cla oli etc... any basta maayos ka group.
Kaninong fave haus kayo lage gumagawa pg group proj? * kina olivene our 2nd home! haha!
Sino mdalas mong kasama? * si sheryl-->hindi mabubuhay ng wala ako. haha ayt gurl?
I 'am her personal spokeperson too! miss yah gurlashoo!
Fave pntahan pg walang class? * SM??? haha! Oli's house or Ombie's...
May ROTC/NSTP ka ba? * nope
San building nyo? * 'CC, CB, NB tama ba? haha bsta depende sa class!
Fave school supply shop? * National & dun sa tapat ng skul hahaha
Fave minor subjects * P.E.! Economics, Psycho, Phicon (promise!)
Fave Classroom? * Thesis room at guluhin ang buhay ni mam mangalonzo hahaha
tapos pag aayusin pa kami ng mga thesis books then mag papa bible study
muna cya bago magpacheck ng docus! hahaha!
Fave major subject? * GUI, mulmed, Innet, Infosys, etc...
Fave professor? * basta cla un... mga sirs hello! hehe
Fave kasabay pg pauwi? * ako lng pa north, but palabas ng skul halos lahat sabay sabay.
Ano sinasakyan mo pauwi? * Jeep, Bus, Fx kung san ako masaya!
Fave hnihiram ng clasmate m sau? * suklay?, powder?, mirror? hahaha
Hardest subject mo? * haaay ewan assembly! ang haba haba ng input walang
kwenta naman output! hahaha
Unforgettable moment sa buong college life? * my group and the other group
merged into one group called Budz!- pinakamaiingay na nilalang sa campus as in!
halos kahiya ko na nga cla eh! as in! hahaha :P
* uhmmm madami pang fwendly fwends, batch mates & bloackmates na nameet
* lahat ng happenings, ups and downs, celebration, heartaches(lol) and everything!!!
* lessons learned :)
* Basta happy ang college life ko.
Best thing in college? * uhmmm diploma? TOR na walang 3(yes!)? thesis? hahaha! uhmmm ciempre i found true friends!u know kung cno kau... lavyah! :)

Nothing's Gonna Stop Us

2007-02-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

***i love this song! :)

(yes fwend! nothing's gonna stop us!!!)

"Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now"
Looking in your eyes, I see a paradise.
This world that I found is too good to be true.
Standing here beside you,
I want so much to give you this love in my heart
that im feeling for you

Let them say we're crazy.
I don't care about that.
Put your hand in my hand, baby, don't ever look back.
Let the world around us just fall apart.
Maybe we can make it if we're heart to heart.

And we can build this thing together, stand in stone forever,
nothing's gonna stop us now.
And if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have eachother.
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now.

I'm so glad I found you, I'm not gonna lose you,
whatever it takes to stay here with you.
Take it too the good times, see it through the bad times.
Whatever it takes is what I'm gonna do.

Let them say we're crazy.
What do they know?
Put your arms around me, baby, don't ever let go.
Let the world around us just fall apart.
Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart.
Oh, all that I need is you.
All that I ever need.
All that I want to do is hold you forever, forever and ever.

And we can build this thing together, stand in stone forever,
nothing's gonna stop us now.
And if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have eachother.
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now.

And we can build this thing together, stand in stone forever,
nothing's gonna stop us now.
And if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have eachother .
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now.

it's me w/ chin & ju =)
wanna hear the song?
feel free to play it on my Singingbox.
(MYMP's Version)

I miss you, 2 years ago...

2007-02-05T23:38:00.000+08:00

It’s been 2 years ago since the "tragic" came into my life. I don't want it to happen again... never! I recall... past 6pm (I'm on my way home from work) I received a call from someone and the news broke my heart, my tears fell like a river and it's like a nightmare… That night, I wished that it’s only a dream because I can’t accept the fact that it’s really happening. It’s like I’m falling into pieces especially when I saw the helpless body at the ICU with machines around him. I don’t know what will happen then, I just cried and prayed. My life has change after that incident. My life two years ago is different from now… but I don’t care for the changes, the important is He’s still with us until now…. GOD is so good... I love u Dad but I miss you, 2 years ago...

work + love

2007-02-01T22:11:00.000+08:00

From Admin to Sales to Marketing... I had a meeting with michelle at Shangrila a while ago regarding marketing matters for Playshop 07. She discussed the things that we should do for nextweek (promo, guestings, sponsorships, radio ad, collaterals, blah blah blah)... (matinding pressure nanaman toh, but I'm used to it hehehe!) matapos ang madugong paguusap, we end up talking about "love" matters...haha! while walking from shangrila-> megamall-> Podium (for another mtg) ayun isa lng ang topic namin! we both agreed to the fact na... Kung mahal ka talaga ng isang tao(guy), cya mismo ang gagawa ng way at hindi mo kailangan unahan ang mga "dapat" mangyari, u don't need to make papansin or whatsoever! so if it happens, good! if not maybe it's not meant to be. sabi nga nila pag pinaghirapan mo dun ka masasatisfied. eniwei, that's my opinion, i have the right to write whatever i want and this is my blog! (haha), Back to the topic... Maybe we should wait for God's time na cya mismo ung kikilos at hipuin ang ating mga puso(naks!). If u have deeper relationship with God, ul understand... Just PRAY. because He knows what's best for us. (sounds oldie... but this is true!) Take it slow... Let the wind blow and let God shower you the gift of love that you want :)

haaayz

2007-01-30T23:30:00.000+08:00

I heard Reymond's version of "Panunumpa" heto lang masasabi ko... "haaay!" Galing mo talaga reym! kaya i texted him agad to say na nice yung version nya. hmmm lapit na... lapit mo ng maabot ang yong mga pangarap! keep it up dude! stay humble!... :)

Wanna hear Reymond Sajor's "Panunumpa"?
http://jboygonzalessj.multiply.com/music/item/51

Tambay sa cinema4 / Dish Christmas Show

Visit his website :
http://www.reymondsajorreigns.com

Im Tired.... (blind items) LOL

2007-01-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

grbe dami dami dami ng importanteng nangyari ang hindi ko nasulat d2 hehe! as if madami akong readers! lol. by the way visit my multiply site for a lot of pics! --> http://butterflykisses22.multiply.com. This january mejo busy me sa rakets... i have no full time job ryt now but panalo sa raket haha! dami ko kase gusto gawin, di ko alam ano uunahin ko... haaay! tapos my gumugulo pa sa isip ko! sana naman di ko na maisip. huhuhu! kung ano man un pinagpepray ko na lng... if not meant to be sana pag gising ko... mawala na kung ano man un... tagal na din. pls. basta un na yun! at sayo? alam kong hindi mo mababasa to kse wala kang time pero sa iba ang dami mong time at kala mo di ko pansin un. bakit ba ha?! feeling mo ah! kung cno man tinutukoy ko wlang makakaalam nun kahit barilin nyo me sa luneta hindi ako aamin (haha). tago ko na lang sa pangalang "bokbok" lol. dun sa isa... "kaibigan" lng talaga eh, kahit ipagpilitan ko... walang spark! sorry... :(... sa iba pa... tama na! mga player! losers! Tapos.

It's a brand new year!

2007-01-06T22:09:00.000+08:00

Again again again it took me forever to write… kinda’ busy before and after the holiday season! Haaayz but I’m still thankful for this “busy life” of mine! Parties, Reunion and everything! Laging puyat! haaaayz... So thankful for the jobs I got before the year ends… So happy for the blessings that I got last year and pag pasok pa lang ng New Year, blessing na agad sumalubong sa akin, Thank God! Hopefully maging maganda ang year na to for me. Last year was the busiest but I can say that I’m happy and learned a lot! Dami din ako na meet na new friends… some of them naging ka close ko- Thanks for the memories- u know hu u are! Thanks also sa mga nag exit sa life ko! Haha! Eniwei!, About my plans? Well, dami pumapasok sa isip ko na mahirap gawin… I hope isa man dun matupad ko and it’s a challenge for me! 2007 na!!! It’s a Brand new year & a Brand new life for us!, so let go of the past and start the year with a big smile in our heart!

My Pic Slide Shows... Enjoy!

2006-12-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

My BUDZ... :)

My FaMiLy... :)

"Dilemma"

2006-12-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

Well... It took me forever to write. I'm quite busy these past months (*sigh*), with my job and everythiiing! Btw, Christmas is fast approaching and still... never mind! haha. lolz :) I’m so confused recently with “something”… take note “something” and not anyone else. I’m Confused with this “dilemma”. A friend of mine encourages me to try a job (related to my course), I’m not saying that I’m not happy with my current job, the fact is I’m happy and enjoying it (people around me and the environment) and I really thank God for giving me the opportunity, I’m in good hands and I work for Him. There’s an offer for me for Playshop (same job I did last summer) next year, but I’m still thinking if I’m going to accept it. I’m planning to enrol next year (IT advance course) and try something different that will change my life. lolz! (better or worse?) haha! and something "new" awaits me (If God's will...) I’ll just follow the wind… and my heart… :)

Sweet Sassy Princess

My New Cyber Abode

NOTICE

...

I feel alone right now.

BuSy ME :D

I miss my blog!

My Summer Escapade 2008

Galera 08 with HS budz + Snapshots

I have been tagged!

When God closes the door, He opens a window! (So True)

Camwhore Galore

Snapshots Collection Set 1-3

Princess in the couch.

Isang linggong Pagibig. este gastos.

Masaya o Malungkot?

1 week ago. emo. Halloween

I'l Be Alright

How to Overcome Sadness

I'm Back

yey! spark?

grarrr.

Friendship Test

Congrats!!!

Randomness Galore + Big Girls Don' Cry.

Ang Tagal.

For Good =)

Realization

Busy Weekend + Cravings + Mourn

Whoa!

Whaaattiiilyk!

ExXxcited.

Lesson 101

Mixed Emo.

wheEew!

Ü Lo000oose!

?!@*!*&^!???

So Perfect =)

You can't stop the beat!

Way back into love...

Aaawww...

Im so so so....

"i never knew what love was...til i met you..."

Puerto Galera Trip

Potipot Island Trip

Crush! (as of this moment haha)

*Pag tinopak nga naman...*

*Memorable Event*

*Night Out with Sistah*

*TGIF* a movie & serious talks... :)

*OLD EMAILS* :)

OLD EMAIL cont...

OLD EMAIL cont...

*Mon & Tue*

*Night Out...*

*REACHING OUT*

*WISH*

*DREAM*

*I Can't Make You Love Me...*

*The Promise*

*MYMP's 1st Araneta Concert*

*Night Out* Bday+Vday

*Kolehiyo koh*

*Nothing's Gonna Stop Us*

*I miss you, 2 years ago...*

*work + love*

*haaayz*

Im Tired.... (blind items) LOL

It's a brand new year!

My Pic Slide Shows... Enjoy!

"Dilemma"

?!@!&^!???

Pag tinopak nga naman...

Memorable Event

Night Out with Sistah

TGIF a movie & serious talks... :)

OLD EMAILS :)

Mon & Tue

Night Out...

REACHING OUT

WISH

DREAM

I Can't Make You Love Me...

The Promise

MYMP's 1st Araneta Concert

Night Out Bday+Vday

Kolehiyo koh

Nothing's Gonna Stop Us

I miss you, 2 years ago...

work + love

haaayz